I am no LOA expert but you are very specific in your desires which is wonderful!! Why are you embarrassed and feeling stupid, your desires are YOURS!! With LOA there is nothing as IMPOSSIBLE. Keep your desires in place and let it go to the universe. Stop thinking about it and just go with the flow. Love & Luck your way!!

Give him a call and tell him about the membership. Keeping mum wont help. Dont ask anything about his GF or dont indulge in any other talks. Just keep it to the point. If he's not telling u abt his GF, just dont take it up. But I feel do not encourage him for any other favours, financially or sexually. 

Even I feel LOA is not against or for a religion, its a LAW....just like the other LAWS....none of us have seen God, but its the "FAITH" towards the all mighty, dont think its against a religion, read about it in details and then decied on your own. Listen to your heart, do accoringly. 

Yes, keep going, good and bad days will come, am also a little down today but I went out with my co workers and grabbed a chocolate shake and a sandwich, am feeling soooooooooooo good.....nothing beats being in love with FOOD.....keep working girl....we are all with you!!

I totally agree with Blue. There is no strict rule for NC. Come on, we are human, sending a thoughtful msg at this time would mean a lotttttt!!!! I mean it shows u still remember those moments. And u said its 10 months....so had u been really creepy or stalking, you wouldnt have waited for 10 months would you? Its an extremely graceful gesture on your part to send a text at his dad's death anniversary. Just send the text and forget about it. DO NOT EXPECT ANYTHING AT ALL. Think as if u are sending it to any damn person (I know its not easy but you have to) Do it ONLY IF YOU ARE OK with a NO REPLY or just a "Thank You". Trust me....even a small thanks means a lot. Best wishes girl.