I appreciate your reply. And would've agreed with you if it were a few years ago, but it's not that I'm wrapped up in him or don't love myself, it's that the merry go round bugs my life!

My immediate life is my kid and I. We are building, we are living, we have great friends, and she's cute as she is smart.

Dating not an issue, nor are friendships or dating men.

He and i have been friends for close to ten years. HE has not committed a soul since me and that's when I was 22. I'm currently 35.

When we broke up his world changed. I miscarried twins, his father died, his mother has cancer and he is the man of that family. So he financially, emotionally, and physically with drawls and stress all the time.

Outside his family, I'm sincerely the only person he will share those talks with where maybe it should be tgem or a therapist sender puts his LIFE on hold.

Things for me keep going because I AM a catch, but it doesn't change he has my heart.

It's not always us that loses our loves because of our "down falls." His issues and my focus on building more for my daughter and my life clash often and once it gets good or I'm single or he is doing well in life, he comes back. This time I gave it a chance all year and unfortunately his mom got sick again and gone he went for two months.

This time he was back all November...got a new assignment with his department, things were looking good...and NOW we are back to a disappearance.

The trouble is LOA works for me attracting love or men. But he is already attracted, his life isn't something I can manifest for him. And that's were my emotions lie.

I am a girl who loves a boy at the end of the day no matter how I word it...but i totally love me and my kid above all!

But if I'm honest I don't know that I can do LOA for him. He has to do it for himself to attract the things he needs in his life to feel like he has one and us financially secure and knows he IS NOT his father and he has to create boundaries so he can enjoy hi

Selfloveiskey wrote:

Thanks everyone 😊

Yes it was more of a holistic thing. I feel at peace even now and I remind myself that he isn't my soul purpose I am. Of course he said everything I wanted him to say Saturday. It was very intense . But in a good way. I didn't pressure anything and he told me he realized he could never love anyone as much as he loves me. He kept saying how beautiful I am and how he missed me so much. He kept calling himself stupid for what he did ( I confirmed that he was stupid lol) he was very very loving. When he kissed me it was different it was very very passionate and loving. He again kept telling me how he loves me so much. He kept apologizing for how much he had hurt me. He told me I drive him crazy. He said every time he always comes back to me always. It was a very nice night and totally unexpected. And we both want to give it another shot 😊. And yes we did have sex but it was different too he was more focused on loving me and was different the entire time. He also after even in the morning was very loving and sweet . He just wanted to hold me and still told me the same things. Now we are texting and he initiated it and is telling me about his day . You guys remember my story and where I was months ago. This is amazing

"...and yes we had sex," made me smile so hard..lol! Yasssss honey!

I'm very happy for you over here. I don't comment all the time but I do read stories and boy the word processing is too bland of a word for you.

You're a rockstar right now!

sillyromantic wrote:

Awe congrats. That's a big step! Just enjoy this and let it happen! he's still thinking about you :-)

That's the part that makes me happy....just knowing he still thinks of me.! Thank you.

ashpari wrote:

hello everyone,
i have question 
basically i can effortlessly visualise and  day dreaming that me and my specific person getting marry or already we are husband and wife.
so that means my subconscious mind already believe that and in future this will happen.
and i also have question that in my mind suddenly some  thought pop up that he is getting marry with another girl but in second i changed it.
is this thought affecting my dream ?.
if affecting so how can deal with this .
sry for my bad english

So I think that random thoughts aren't always your fault. Sometimes it's our creative thinking if you will that ruins things or makes them amazing. It is the dwelling and acting on it that makes them alive.

I forget the phrase but it goes something like if you say it it becomes real if you thinking it then you'll do it. If you do it it becomes...don't act on the negative ones obviously by allowing something like marrying someone else get in the way.

Harder said I'm sure but believe in you! Start thinking you are the best catch there is out there...who on earth would leave you. Think it, be it!

Dan2015 wrote:

One thing that confuses me is.     Why people believe in loa but tend to think of things in a non loa way most of the time

I mean. I’m not saying don’t use common sense or don’t think practical.    But with loa you’re suppose to be more of a “dreamer” or more fairy tale based


With loa you’re suppose to think of things more on a positive side(especially if you’re still happy even without the specific person, I mean why not?  What do you have to lose)

For you.   Of course non loa and practical thinking would be. “He’s manipulating me to keep me around”.   But if you believe that, what’s the sense of believing in loa? Where basically anything can happen if you’re in alignment?

A more loa way.  Would be to look at it on a positive side and know you’ll get things you want


Ugh.  Times like this is when I wish people like Cherished,Sam,etc still came on here

Dan, I'm almost taking offensive to your reply. Surly you understand everyone's"common sense" is different because NO ONE'S situation is common!

If you're further along in LOA...my suggestion...act like it and respond in such a way that is helpful and not critical. That ia what this forum is for correct?

The room I chose was a "discussion" room because I'm as far along. My title said "now what" making it textually obvious that I'm not sure what to do next.

We battle with our life experiences and as the person who replied to me with "bread crumbs" it IS a considerable thought because that what discussions are.

Have I been lead on in the past...sure....so I can respect that point of view from a non-loa perspective.

Would you like to offer a pro&loa perspective?