Hi everyone!

I sort of felt I should write up about things since I've noticed from other posts, here and on other forums that people often wonder what becomes of the people who have been able to fix things up. I've also been spending the last few months experimenting with my own ways to fix my problems from the inside. I've noticed a number of comments on this thread and I hope the journey I had documented has helped a few people. Here's a follow-up of what's being going on.

1) I switched completely to Neville Goddard's teaching. I mentioned in my last post that there had been some goof up on my end, because I had been able to fix the problem from outside and I was micro-managing each step - instead of focusing on the root of the issues I was manifesting texts and responses and trust me it can be a tiring process. Being happy 24*7 is not possible and honestly, you don't need to be in any form of "high vibration" to get what you want - if you set such conditions then yes because you make your own rules.

2) I've spent a lot of time understanding myself. You can lie to the entire world but be honest with yourself. Your desires are perfectly normal and acceptable but make sure they are truly what you desire. Forgive yourself for the screw-ups, don't punish yourself. If you want to cry for a day, cry, let it out. Pent up emotions are more problematic. Once you let yourself breathe you'll naturally start the process of healing and forgiving and the sooner you get there, the sooner you'll start believing in yourself and your power to control your reality. "Be angry but sin not".

3) In these few months, I've manifested so much and things keep getting better. I switched jobs again with a major hike in a huge corporate. Perfect working hours. Cheap travel. Empty seats beside me in flights. Free flight upgrades to business class (It's so funny, I actually hand my card out for an upgrade even though I know they'll say they're giving it to me for free lol). Gifts. Two high a

So yeah, I'm not using my older thread anymore because that heading is from a different era and a different version of me.

Long story short, last Sunday I went on an affirmation rampage, emotionally charged instantaneous one. Precisely I felt angry at myself for succumbing to my fears and I wanted to break free. I yelled out everything I demanded and I said I don't care what it takes to make it happen. Then I cried. It was a raw emotional experience where I felt the honesty in every word I uttered. Within 12 hours I started seeing changes in everything around me. My distant colleagues are all over me now. My manager and CEO might start praising me for breathing and coming to work now lol ( not sarcasm, they're literally praising me for random things now! ). In my heavily traffic logged area where it was near impossible to catch cheap cabs, I get my transport in minutes now. The fears have melted away. Not even once did I ever feel any one them again.

With my man, I did something recently that could be considered to be messing in the middle. I personally don't care because of my emotional state before and after. I honestly feel it was the last part of the bridge of incidents and now I am ready to receive it.

So yeah. I crashed. I was on the right track ( now that I think about it I realised how perfectly orchestrated it was, anyway, forget it lol, happens, I recovered later so no harm done). I reacted pretty badly like my old self and anyway. But to be honest, I always knew ( or it was sorta hard-coded in my head because of the society I've grown up in) for the deal to get sealed, there would have to be a second round of soul searching no contact. But unlike last time, I'm having fun. I've taken up new hobbies which I wanted to, I've been experimenting with methods to stop self sabotage ( let's get real, even marriages flop big time if you aren't careful, there's no real security outside yourself ). For a second I thought I'd date...I opened the dating profile and then after scrolling thought a thousand faces, all I could think about is how my man is better than all of them combined lol. So I shut it out. Had to do it. Might as well be sure of my reasons to hold on. I sorta love no contact than a half baked cake because no contact gives me the time to focus on myself, this way I don't have to worry about how things will get rearranged, the only thing I know is, the next time I see him in my 3d reality, he's going to ask me to be with him together for eternity. So what's a few days of no contact when compared to a lifetime of togetherness? And not just SP, this is about our whole lives. Now I can live peacefully knowing that I have the power to change anything I want to. Why would I like to give that up? Hell I've spent my life looking for this, now that I've found it, I'm mastering it. And mastery requires effort, there will be situations like this but yeah, it's all a part of the learning process. It requires persistence. It requires you to stick to your goal even when something looks like a failure. Because with the law, there is never a failure. If we learn how to hold on with all our might, there's never scope for failure.

I post quite rarely because I've found th

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I was reluctant to post this because, well, as usual, unlike popular belief, sharing problems doesn't help, makes things worse. But hey, as you keep going up a level, the tasks keep getting tougher and it just takes your skillset to the next level.
This forum, with all its good and bad has been a huge turning point in my life where I've actually grown. Many thanks to some of the amazing people who constantly take the effort to help others and give advice. So I turn back here from time to time. Because at the end of the day, we all want to have and amazing life and having a few cheerleaders on the way always makes the route feel smoother.

I'll be honest, I can get a bit messy when I have multiple things going on. When it comes to things of the mind, I am damn focused. One thing at a time. Meditation has helped me a lot. In life in general.
With my man, (I am all cool about calling him my husband even now, because I can hear it loud and clear that this is THE bridge of events and this is IT) there was trouble in paradise. My insecurities do pop up and with time crunch at work, I dropped my game too. And naturally he reached, he's just me pushed out in the end. And I kept patching it out somehow but I could feel the tension in me growing and I noticed it grow too. I won't go into details of what happened, but it's pretty huge, and my old self would have cried my eyes out by now. I'm proudly typing, because what I did last night makes me so PROUD that I can't boast enough. First, I revised the scene on spot as much as I could. I filtered out all the unwanted information as quickly as I could. I didn't flutter, my voice didn't crack. I wasn't shaking. Not a tear. I was so calm that when I look back, I shudder. Even he's not processed my reaction to be honest. For the first time I saw him grow pale. I raised my head, left and blocked him from everywhere. Because I am first priority and I am so rare and perfect that my object of affection begs me to marry him.

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