Hey guys, I know I haven't logged onto here for ages! But happy to say I'm still in a happy relationship and have been for a year and also been manifesting very well However, I don't know why but something has popped up in my head, and I really want to reconcile with my ex best friend.

Long story short, I have known her a long time, we had a falling out because she started acting really off with me, and my ex boyfriend used to flirt with her a lot (serial cheat) because I was delusional and thought I was in love with him, I believed him when he said he wasn't. My other best friend used to plant seeds that it was her, I think she had always been jealous of my friendship with my ex best friend and I feel like she may have stirred things up and made them worse. Anyway the outcome was my best friend showed me some messages that my ex best friend had sent her about me and I got mad and told her I didn't want to be friends with her anymore. We had a huge row and my best friend now and I fell out with our ex friend. (Sorry if this is confusing). 

Lately I have been seeing another side to the girl I'm still friends with, shes paranoid and very insecure to the point its making her toxic. I have tried to brush it off but she keeps bringing up stuff that happened in the past and implying that her boyfriend she now lives with fancies me. We had spoken and sorted this out but she keeps bringing it up and now its making me uncomfortable. But now I am thinking if she didn't stir everything up with my ex best friend then maybe we would still be friends. I am feeling very conflicted with the two of them, but also feel I owe my ex best friend an apology. I know if I apologised to her though that my friend now would fall out with me because she would see it as being disloyal. When its nothing to do with her, I just don't want to hold this hurt around anymore and I want to say sorry for any hurt I may have caused. I do miss my ex best friend very much, she was selfish and

I am so happy and grateful for my amazing, loving committed relationship with AH. I appreciate everything he does for me and how he is always there for me. I am so grateful I have met such an amazing, loyal, loving man who wants to make me happy. I am so thankful he has finally said I love you and meant it. I am so happy and grateful that we are now talking about our future and making plans. I am so thankful that we are so compatible and make each other so happy. I am so grateful to have him in my life and I cannot wait to spend the rest of my life with him. 

sillyromantic wrote:

That is awesome, I'm in the exact same place now pretty much. Tried so hard to get my ex back for months and when he came back only as a friend and he's still with the rebound it was like a weight lifted off my shoulders and I didn't need him anymore. I still wish him the best and glad that the breakup lead me on this path. He texts me once a week now when he's bored and I'm just like "cool, happy for you". I now attracted a new man in my life who respects me and admires me and wants to work through things in a mature way and make an effort so I just needed to get my ex back in my life in order to open my eyes and move on and now I know that everything will work out for the best because I expect more for myself now and I will have that. New guy is actually flying here for me from another country this weekend and I'm excited and nervous!

I am really glad! x

I am so happy and grateful that I finally have a referral to the hospital and getting my head sorted out! (been waiting months lol!)
I am so happy and grateful for my flat as it keeps me warm at night and keeps me safe.
I am so happy and grateful I have working legs to get me around everywhere and a healthy body that lets me live every day! 
I am so happy and grateful for my amazing committed boyfriend AH.
I am so happy and grateful I am learning and growing everyday to become a better person!