Hello friends! I had posted months ago since I'm in a long quest to heal my relationship with my ex. I have manifested wonders lately, and always when I feel good about myself, but the situation with him has not hatched yet since I am still very attached to the outcome and dealing with some leftover neediness, trying to place all the focus on myself and on being happy right now with my own life. I can't say I'm there yet but I feel like I've made significant progress compared to how I was a couple of months ago, let along six months ago. I am quite proud of myself but still experience anxiety when it comes to my love.
I had posted many times about not knowing if he was being honest about being over me. I had the issue of having trouble to live in the end because his claim that he had no feelings left for me kept blocking the way, so I tried to manifest knowing for sure that he had feelings for me even if we wouldn't get in a relationship yet, so that then I could focus better. For months it didn't work but then I traveled, let go some, and a series of crazy things happened that showed me that he is undoubtedly in love with me, which is spectacular! I somehow learnt that he feels longing but doesn't regret his decision and tries to supress his feelings and move on. Turns out learning this didn't fix my discipline problems though (obvsly). We were in complete no contact for so long and I have now managed to manifest almost daily contact, much of which is initiated by him, and I'm so excited about that, although many times he cuts and ghosts even the most enthusiastic conversation abruptly, as if he's scared of something. When our friends see us together they say we look like flirty teenagers who have just discovered their crush for each other. However he's made clear that he doesn't want anyone, any kind of relationship in his life (which is both good and bad), and he's also made clear that he doesn't ever want me again because of my neediness and possessiveness in th

Hello! Today I effed up big time messing with my manifestation, so I denounce all the negativity and doubts and decide to focus on the challenge wholeheartedly without allowing any logic, overanalyzing etc. which are my biggest problems. I'm here to support y'all who need a pat on the back and thank you so much for all the help in the forum! This time I'm determined to be disciplined!

No, his blog is like a diary so he posts about his mood. Like when he broke up wiyh his ex years ago and was still in love, he'd post about his process, grieving their relationship etc. He's been posting similar stuff since we broke up and that made sense, including many posts about him having to conceal his feelings, but being all lovey dovey and cute with his posts doesn't really fit being heartbroken over a breakup, does it? I know that overanalyzing is very counterproductive with loa lol, idk why I'm still doing it. As for keeping track of my staying away, that's a good tip, thanks. I'll try it and hopefully I can stop this bad habit.

I'd like to post my progress. Have been manifesting like crazy lately, I intended for a free trip during the summer and so far have about 2,5 lol. Good things have been happening in all areas of my life, I even manifested for a friend to be happy and she's been happier than she's been in a long time. Also manifested so much money out of the blue after living in the end! Anyway, about my sp, let go for some days and lived in the end, bumped into him AGAIN, he told me he'd see me at a conference but he never came, felt good despite that, then I relapsed and checked his blog where he's posted all those lovey dovey gifs and quotes, and also several about dreams (i.e. once upon a dream from the sleeping beauty a couple of times, the lyrics from arctic monkeys "i've dreamt about you nearly every night this week"). I freaked out immediately and it serves me right for stalking and focusing on external circumstances. I fear that such lovey dovey posts may indicate progress with another person, since he is adamant about not being with me. I wish they could be about me but we happened to talk and he didn't seem like he's changed his mind. The most ridiculous part of it though was that a couple of days ago I affirmed in my journal that " he can't stop thinking and dreaming about me".

I am in a big dilemma, connected to external reality but I still haven't received a clear answer from my subconscious. My friends will be going to an event out of the city tomorrow and he will be there so naturally I wanted to go (also because I want to be at the event) and arranged it, but now I'm not sure if it's a good idea. Wouldn't it be like trying to force something to happen externally. I need an answer until tonight, waiting for a sign.