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PrettyFlamingo wrote:

I really wish you didn't allow her to be the determiner of whether you are happy or not. 

Me too. I mean, I can be happy without her... but not "full" without her, if that makes sense. There are days I feel AMAZING, in fact, most days I do. I have GREAT days... but it doesn't feel "right" or "complete" without her there. It gives me like a somewhat empty feeling of incompleteness. It's just not something I can help. I'm missing her. Oh well, though. Thanks for the support, PF. You're always so kind

Gratitude21 wrote:

YesIWILL wrote:

Gah, I just asked for a sign that we'll be together and saw her name, (very unique name, VERY uncommon to meet someone with this name in general, let alone see it on the internet) and also saw the name of the city in which she's from in a post near the previous one.

How do I take these signs as hope when it feels so unlikely that she'd return? I need to do something about how I'm feeling about this... hmm... I feel like it has to be a sign, but I just can't be convinced. Damn.

Signs are motivators and if you feel this is a sign then this is a sign. But why do I sense so much of uncertainty in you. That's not LoA! You have to trust that she is with you and your total trust will only make it happen. Love yourself....live in gratitude...be happy just as you will be when she is going to be with you. Trust the process!
All the best to you!

I just don't believe she can come back, which I'm sure is why you sense "some" uncertianty Thank you though. I'm trying hard to get myself to a place which I can believe she'd be on her way.

I was feeling good, haven't sent her a message in a LOOOOOOOOONG time, and just sent a "Hey hope you're doing well, followed by a 'saw this thing that reminded me of you yesterday". - actually told the thing. Didn't just say "a thing". Kept it short and sweet... She's still ignoring me I guess... How do I influence her to stop ignoring me? Just visualize her coming back? Responding? I'm feeling good about this... There's gotta be some way

Selfloveiskey wrote:

YesIWILL wrote:

PrettyFlamingo wrote:

Is "doing horribly" all in relation to the woman? Because other stuff in life must be ok surely? Work for example?

Um... hmm.... a LOT due to that, but in total? Just life. Work's sucking, not taking classes, I feel like I'm hit a plateau in life that I'll never get out of, I just feel unworthy of everyone. I have no idea why. So it's kind of all-around. OH well.

@L2D look at Zion's success story. I mean, damn. It's really one of the only thing that gives me hope these days  It's inspiring!

Whose story is that I would just like to read it. Can you link it? You really need self love I highly recommend love yourself like your life depends on it. It helps I have done it for a week and it has really brought me back up. I really want to keep going with it because I just want to rely on me myself and I for true happiness. My guy is a contributing factor buuut it's mainly me. It all begins with self love i really think if you practice this your life will change miracles happen etc but most importantly you are already happy

I'll try to find it. Until then, I'll just post a tl;dr (I was in communication with her for a while before then, and until then. She told me while I was at work and I was BLOWN AWAY)

So, TL;DR:

Dude was acting dumb, blocked her everywhere (probably except phone/text, however he wouldn't answer when she'd try texting before, so she decided to work on herself and have a good time in her life), she focused on herself and affirmations and whatnot (all the LoA stuff) for over 8 months, and she thought, "I want to do something for myself" and signed up for dance classes. Long story short, she was supposed to be going to the one on Tuesdays and for some specific reason, she ended up doing the one on Fridays, which was was pretty much a "just because" reasoning, I believe... I can't remember why that one happened when s