It all started last week when I felt a sense of completeness within myself, then I thought about my love and the friend I wanted to reconnect with. I started seeing eleven eleven again, everyday just knowing I was close. Today when I went to workout at the park I saw someone wearing a jersey that said eleven on it.

Then it happened, I saw her. The friend I want to reconnect with at the train station, I smiled in happiness. Knowing we will speak soon. I told my love I saw her. It has been so long since that incident in high school and she talks to my sister because they go to college together.

My family does not want me talking to her nor does her boyfriend want her talking to me. But I had a dream where he understood it was not me that caused the incident. I just know the one friend who I always loved and always felt was my true friend will cross paths with me once more.

Colonel Roosevelt wrote:

I recommend IT by Stephen King. 

Wow, one horror in here.

I recommend:

1. The Four Agreements by Don Miguel Ruiz
2. Did I ever wake up? by Mod Sun
3. How Life Works by Andrew Matthews

Staceylouuu91x wrote:

It seems like you don't listen because you often with replies like "but, what if she doesn't want me?". I know all too well how hard it is living with anxiety and overthinking. I have days where I think someone is mad at me because they have slightly different wording.

The thing with LOA is that it's real and isn't biased, so if you're projecting from a place of lack that's what manifests more. I once got back together with a person who told me he didn't love me and we had a good relationship after that. With these things you need to set an intention and focus only on the things you want, if you give too much attention and energy to the opposite because it's an unbiased thing it'll manifest. It doesn't know good or bad. 

Doubts are natural because it does sound so silly on paper but this stuff actually works. There are too many success stories everywhere for it just to be a coincidence and I doubt every single person would even have the time or energy to carry on something like this for this long. 

I know you don't want to be her friend, which is fine but I'm friends with all my exes and they came back into my life when I forgave them and myself for all that happened. 

Also, to add on people change their minds all the time. My darling at one time swore on his life he would no longer be kind to me if I was playing "games" with him. That has not happened, he was still kind to me and loving. Even today he is still with me, we have been back together for seven months and I still visualize at times and give gratitude towards him. Cuz I have not stopped.

I have been having moments where I blank out and have a hard time following where my thoughts are, kinda like I was put on pause. Not sure if it is from mental exhaustion or not. What should I do in that moment?