Hey everyone. Just wanted to share a quick story with you, mostly because there aren't many others with whom I'd discuss it.

I was out with friends tonight and met a really nice girl, Laura, or Lauren, with whom I hit it off rather well. A friend of mine came over and started chatting with the two of us and, more or less, torpedo'd any hope of getting her number, which I wanted at the time. A far more sober version of myself, an hour later, realizes I didn't want to get with her, but I did tell my friend that he's the worst wingman ever at the time of said encounter. He told me, 'Aren't you already with someone?'

He's right. I'm already with the Social Worker. I was surprised at his comment, since we've only known each other a few weeks, but it really hits home now. It makes me wonder if I manifested his intervention. Is such a thing possible?

I live in a high-rise downtown (it doesn't matter where), and there's a doorman at the front door who's on duty until about midnight during the week and, I think, 2am or so on the weekends. I ran my story past him in brief, saying she and I are on a break and describing my feelings and frustrations, and he was super supportive. He essentially told me, 'Sometimes you need that separation to understand what you have. You need to really think about why you broke up and if you even want her again.' 

It reinforced within me one simple fact: I do want her back in my life. It's the Chemist and the Social Worker until the end of time, and I'll do whatever it takes to make this happen. I've changed a shitton, and I'm aware of what went wrong and how to fix it, how to be better and stronger than before.

We can do this. We will do this. It's only a matter of time. Days, if we're lucky.

Thanks for reading, everyone. I appreciate your comments and support every day.

Niiiiice! Congrats!

So I'm having a lot of trouble just ignoring reality, especially after she unfriended me on Facebook this week. That thought, while completely unimportant, keeps imposing itself on my mind and I'm having a difficult time avoiding it, even though it has helped me quit stalking her on social media.

Does anyone have any advice on ignoring this reality? What do you do to stop thinking about unpleasant aspects of your current reality so you can manifest something better? I get the feeling this is slowing me down this week, despite my other progress.

So immediately after posting that, I went and found Veronica's video on RS. It was fun the last 10min or so. I started with a back rub that progressed and...well...my whole body got very warm and tingly. It feels amazing, so this is definitely something I need to make part of my daily rituals. Thank you so much for the advice.

I'm thankful you think so, Susie! She and I always sleep better when we're together, and, despite the distance, it's beneficial for me. It feels wonderful, and that connection with her is really what I'm seeking, beyond everything else.

I haven't experimented much with RS. I need to find Veronica's videos and give it a shot. Maybe this evening I can do that. Do you have any advice on performing it?

Also, one thing that tends to trip me up is self-doubt. I'll get into position or start imagining she's in the apartment or we're going to dinner in a bit--tonight, I'm making one of her favourite dishes, actually--and then I get all self-conscious and stop the flow of good energy. Have you (or, anyone, really) dealt with this?