At least I like my job and I'm really thankful for everyone I work with. I'm a very liked person and I'm good at making people laugh. I guess I just needed to take a step back and just keep telling myself that reality is a lie and my imagination is the only thing that matters. I thought about her with love and smiled at the fact she is my love. I even imagined getting excited to go home and cuddle with her

When I think of her I feel lacking sometimes. I also think of what I wrote on my first post. Is there like an affirmation for ignoring reality? Those work pretty well with me

Thanks Stacy. You just gave me a mini revelation. When I was meditating on why I think I can't have my manifestation I thought back to a girl I dated in high school. My first real love. Now she's not the one I'm attracting, but when our relationship fell apart I spiralled into depression. I too smoked a ton of weed and always felt bad for myself and always would be so hard on myself. I'd tell myself no one likes me and I became so anti social that I was a shell of who I used to be. It took me a while to get out of that. I think my meditation session this morning was telling me I need to resolve some of this issue in order to feel worthy of my manifestation.

You're all so awesome and encouraging. I was still having a rough time dealing with things. I asked the universe for some help and it delivered. Our mutual friend told me that she has faith that well get back together. She told me that I need to keep that faith if I want it to happen. She said that I was ready. I had done the work I needed, but she isn't. She needs to do work on herself. I just need to be patient and let the universe do it's work.

Well I had a sit down with myself and meditated on the question of why do I feel like I can't have this. My mind just brought up a past experience with my high school love. Throughout this relationship I felt similar feelings. I didn't compare the relationships because that's just not right but I realize that this love was true. I also feel like I'm not allowing myself because I've never gotten back with any of my exes. They all moved on or vice versa. Is it really that easy to remove that block? I feel kinda different about the situation. I even had a spontaneous not forced visualization where we were laying in bed and she snuggled up to me while playing her game. It felt so real and loving.