Thank you Veronica. So even if i don't visualize living in the end everyday I just need to have the confidence and surety that it is going to happen?
It is tough right now been crying horriblyeveryday but I am trying my best to keep faith that he'll contact me soon. Watching your videos and success stories whenever doubts  and negative thoughts creep in

I have been finding it really difficult lately to consistently live in the end. Finding it difficult to remember and feel his touch in my mind. So I am trying to visualize short everyday scenes in my mind. Pretending this is what I would talk to him about and carrying out small conversations in my head. I know there is no point in remembering the past and i should only concentrate on the present and future but I find myself getting impatient and want him to contact me in real time. In my head him I imagine him texting me little things everyday.

It has been over 5 months since I saw or met my ex because of the lockdown. He broke up with me saying he has no feelings left over a month back. I'm following the 25 day challenge and trying to stay positive and live in the end. But I miss him more than I remember him. I'm afraid I will forget his touch and his voice. I'm afraid he won't remember anything if my memories go hazy. We are Not in contact.
I am very sure I want him back and as per LoA teachings, if you feel it in your hand and mind then it is real, but what if I have difficulty feeling it? The feelings for him will not go away over time but maybe just stay buried. When they say time heals all wounds I think it just means that time makes you forget certain things, not heal. I want him back and I'm using the Law of assumption to recreate him as he was with me when we first started dating. He is in a different city and does not plan on coming back here, with the way the pandemic is going I am scared he won't come here till next year and I won't meet him in person. I know I have to ignore the reality and circumstances and just live in the end. But how do I alleviate all my fears?

I did read the reddit threat. Thanks This is encouraging. Do you have any tips on how to deal with hurt feelings? i find myself getting mad at my SP for the way he broke up and how callously I feel he  behaved. and some of the things he said, I have tired letting go of all the negative things he said. But sometimes I get these tiny bursts of anger. How do I deal with those ? While still trying to live in the end.

Oh okay. Yes it makes sense to not text him again. But It's just that there is so much I want to talk to him about, so much I want to ask him about, I want to know what is going on with his B school Ivy League applications, his family etc. I am controlling myself and not texting. I miss him and I miss talking to him. I am  trying to imagine having conversations with him. So I should focus and believe that he will reach out to me correct? 
That little doubt of What if he does not? keeps popping up in my head. I am trying to quite that voice down but it is just so difficult. 
Thank you for the youtube link! Shall watch it