What if by just wanting your ex back, you ignore a potential soul mate in the process?

I think I'm just confused about my ex and another guy right now. I still want my ex back but this other guy is really confusing my true intentions. For now, I'll let my ex go and just know that he will come back when the time is right. It's a hard thing to come to terms with especially for me. I like to see progress immediately, in all aspects of life. To just believe is throwing myself in the deep end but I guess I just have to.

I'll go with the flow. I'll focus on my studies, on work, on my body and on my social life.  I'll focus on becoming a lighter version of me with less negativity.

Today I found out my ex had been with other girls as of late and it put me in a really bad position. I was questioning everything for a while and still am. I'm choosing whether or not to do no contact with him and let things just be. However, I really want to send one last message. I'll post it here instead because sending it to him will do more harm than good.

"You've bailed on your own plans about 3 times now and it's actually really clear that you don't want to "catch up." Fine by me. I would like my photos back as a reminder of what we had for two years. Have the decency to at least post them. It's not that hard."

I need a bit of hope right now, things seem really hopeless and I've been working hard for the last week to remain happy and not thinking about him. But now I just can't stop because maybe it's truly over....

I think he's doing better now. I really could never dream of wishing ill upon him because he really did love me and I think that's the part that kills everyone the most. They love you but they aren't around...BUT! There's always that hope. I guess he came back once, he can come back again. I'm sending him love, I'm sending him thoughts of us being together and really trying to amplify this. I'm praying upon a new relationship that serves my purpose, hopefully with him I hope.

I guess we all miss our loves time to time. It's just a feeling we need to accept, as is sadness. I'm trying to go with the flow more.

veggiepizzaforever wrote:

And this one aspect of my life that isn't going so well? Well, it's not gonna last long.

Focus on things that make you happy. Self-improvement should be your goal right now, not reconcilation with your guy.

That is so true! And I've been so good for months now and only just recently have I slipped completely backwards. I'm not sure what made me slip backwards but I can see that because I've been so needy, he has not been responsive. I was not needy towards him, but I felt needy and I guess that caused the universe to pull back until I am again ready. When I left him alone for a week and focused on myself, he initiated contact with me. I guess, as long as I am okay, the universe will give me what I want. I am going to give myself a week to just clear my energy and focus on work. Week by week I guess <3