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Help me align please... ๐ » Back at square one? » 8/13/2018 12:11 pm |
Hey guys,ย
So I manifested my significant other back after a year of him ghosting and ignoring me. (You can read my story from my previous posts) Like I've tried reaching out to him during that period of time and he flat out ignored me. And during that time, he even got himself a new gf (I know I manifested this due to my insecurities). So that was when I was like that's it. I decided to completely heal and focus on myself. I delved deep into self love and meditated a lot, prayed a lot, started writing out my goals, did the gratitude journal, spent time with friends etc. Then one day, he came back.ย
But, when he came back, he didnt apologize or say any lovey dovey stuff. No, he came back and pretended like nothing happened. Like he talked to me like a friend. Of course, I accepted this and went along for the ride.ย
And we hooked up, twice.ย
But then I realized that everytime we hook up, he'd ignore me until the next time we hook up again. And I started getting anxiety bout being ' just a hook up, nothing more' and I pulled the plug. I told him I didn't wanna hook up anymore. And then he agreed and tried talking to me after but I kinda ignored him for awhile because I wanted to try and get my mind together. It was heartbreaking for me to have to go through a FWB kinda situation after a year of finally manifesting him. I didn't know what to do. Like I did self love and everything but I just didn't understand why he only wanted sex and nothing more. Like i was trying to figure out where I went wrong and what is about me that is manifesting this.ย
So, a week later (I'd say recently, like a couple days ago) he found someone new and posted a picture with this new girl on his Snapchat. Of course, I saw the snap and broke down. I immediately blocked him and now here I am, feeling heartbroken and shitty. Like damn, not again. Did I manifest this third party AGAIN? Like it's been two girls so far and he still doesn't choose me. he still chose these other girls instead o
Help me align please... ๐ » What..... » 7/09/2018 6:41 pm |
Hi. So..
Based on my previous posts, my boyfriend came back and we did Friends with Benefit. Now I realize that I don't want a FWB thing with him, i want an actual relationship with him, but he still doesn't want one with me.
After hooking up two nights ago, he stopped reaching out to me. Like not a single word from him since that night. Before our hook up, he would hit me up every single day, but now it's like he stopped.
I wasn't being clingy or needy or anything. I literally played it cool. But now i'm wondering, what the heck just happened.... like why did he just disappear on me like that? I don't get it.... like i'm trying to wrap my head around this.
Help me align please... ๐ » Friends with benefits? » 7/06/2018 7:05 pm |
So... My boyfriend came back, and we've been talking and I thought he wanted a relationship with me again.ย
But turns out he wants a 'friends with benefits'.ย
I thought to myself, okay play it cool. Why not try it out and see how I feel about it.ย
And so we did the FWB but now i'm like... I dont know if i want this, i think i want something more.ย
So what do I do? How do I get him to want a 'relationship' with me and not just FWB.
Calling all success stories! ๐๐๐ผ » For real tho » 6/29/2018 1:15 pm |
LOA works !ย
Okay so if you've read my posts, you would see that my boyfriend finally came back after a year of me trying to get him back and him ghosting me. It took me a year to gain control of myself and get rid of the neediness. I mean not to say that I don't feel kind attached and needy (still) but I'd say it's lesser than before now. I mean if you read my recent post you could see that I was still attached and needy and I just wanted results fast. BUT I managed to get a hold of myself and just snap my damn self back to my LOA reality.ย
I was sad for two days but then I bounced back.
So instead of pining over my boyfriend and waiting anxiously for him to text me first or give me the kind of responses I want from him, I just let it happen naturally.
So lately I'd go back to fixating that attention on me by doing Agnes Self Love meditations and the H'oponono prayer, and just distract myself by doing the things that make me happy, to take my mind off my boyfriend. Then bam ! my boyfriend would text me. Heck, my boyfriend has been texting me first almost everyday now. I mean I'd have that quick 5 second desire of wanting him to text me each morning, and act as though my wish is fulfilled, like I would expect the text but I'd quickly forget bout it. You know what I mean?
And then bam, the text would come in.ย
I'm still on working on trying to get my boyfriend to text me with sweet romantic responses or tell me that he wants to reconcile, but hey things take time. At least he opened up lines of communication and got back to talking to me now, and I'm super thankful that we're talking again ! We're definitely on our way to getting back together. I can feel it.ย
Just gotta keep my head up and maintain the positive vibes !
Help me align please... ๐ » Uh oh... help? » 6/26/2018 12:02 pm |
Thanks for the reply you guys. Ya'll are right. I think I'm just too fixated on what he should be doing. Like I've my expectations up for some reason. I mean it's great that now he opened up communication, I just don't know where to go from here.ย
Like we started talking but its not like what I hoped for. nothing romantic or sweet, or anything flirty, no indication that he wants to reconcile or still have feelings for me. Sometimes when I reply to his messages, I feel like I'm back to being the one who's trying too hard and his responses started becoming 'disinterested' if you know what I mean.ย
Last night we texted and he didn't seem like he was really interested in what I had to say, i mean he replied but he didn't seem eager to talk to me or focused on the convo. And he even stopped replying at one point. I don't know if he's playing hard to get with me but he definitely isn't trying with me.
This morning, I woke up and didn't get any messages from him but I noticed that he liked his ex's tweets.
But I didn't let it get to me and shrugged it off.ย
How do I get him to you know... I don't know be more interested in reconciling or at the very least, interested in me again?
Help me align please... ๐ » Uh oh... help? » 6/24/2018 11:13 am |
Okay so I posted in the 'calling all success stories' bout my success story. My boyfriend came back ! Well, he reached out to me.
And it took me days to reply cuz i was scared, also i didn't know what to say. But I finally did it and we were texting back and forth just briefly, catching up over some stuff. Then I stopped replying cuz I fell asleep.
But then today, he didnt try reaching out to me at all. See I hate t when he stops replying cuz that's what I fear the most. Being made out like I'm the desperate and needy one.
So i decided to play it cool and reached out first. I sent him a meme. I thought it was funny and reminded me of him but now he's giving me short answer replies, when yesterday he''d give me long messages.
I don't get it? What's going on? I dont wanna play mind games anymore and I don't wanna play hard to get. It's exhausting. What should i do? Is he messing with me?
I thought I finally attracted him back when he finally reached out to me after a year but it doesn't seem like it...
help?
Calling all success stories! ๐๐๐ผ » And so it happened... » 6/23/2018 12:35 pm |
Thanks everyone !ย
Update: I didn't reply to my boyfriend's text till like 5 days later, only because I didn't know what to say. So today I finally replied to his text and he replied back, then I replied and then poof. He stopped replying... He opened the text and read it but he didn't reply.ย
Now this is the reason why it took me awhile to reply because I got scared. Scared that I'll come off as needy and desperate if I do or that he'll stop replying since you know he ghosted me for a year and ignored my texts/attempts of reaching out.ย
But I felt good about myself today so I decided to reply but now to my disappointment, he stopped replying. And now I'm having the 'i knew i shouldn't have replied' moment or the 'seemed too good to be true' moment.ย
What should I do? Helppp
Calling all success stories! ๐๐๐ผ » And so it happened... » 6/19/2018 9:22 am |
My boyfriend came back !ย
I can't believe it. It actually happened. So if you've read my old posts, my boyfriend and I broke up last year (I was jealous his girl bestfriend, needy, clingy and we fought a heck lot as I would find an excuse to pick a fight) and then he ghosted me for exactly a year this month. I tried reaching out to him throughout that one year, he would give me cold responses and ignore my texts, and on Instagram I would try so hard to get his attention and impress him, so I would post **** and do **** that'd get him to react but he didn't. I mean he would watch my instagram stories but he wouldn't like my pictures. And then at one point, he even got himself a girlfriend who is the complete opposite of me and that made me feel like I wasn't good enough at all. I started comparing myself to this other girl and I would stalk the **** outta them and analyze their relationship.
ย Then one day I had enough of it as I knew it was tormenting me and my mental health, I felt like I was going crazy. So I stopped.ย
I deleted social media and started focusing on myself. I decided to give 'Self love' a try !
I did things that would distract me and make me happy, I meditated every single day. Every morning I would wake up and take my dog for a long walk and just get some fresh air, yknow like take in that moment. Then I would go back and start listing out all the things I was grateful for in my gratitude journal and then I would meditate. I would do Agnes Vivarelli's Self love meditations and send unconditional love. Sometimes, I'd alternate between the manifest a text meditation and the meditation for ex. But I'll only do those when I feel good and when I feel like I have self love for myself.ย I did not visualize cause I felt that visualizing would drain me out and it felt like a chore. I just feel 'forced' to imagine and I didn't like that. So I didn't visualize at all.ย
Also during the 3 months, I focused on my goals (got a job, traveled, went on adventu
Calling all success stories! ๐๐๐ผ » Update ? Heh » 6/13/2018 5:40 pm |
Hi guys,ย
I've an update ! Well, it's not really a big deal, but it's still an update. A small one I might add.ย
So it's been almost a year now since my boyfriend and I broke up and last talked. If you read my old posts, you'll see my story.ย
But anyway, he ghosted me and got a new girlfriend and then broke up with his girlfriend yada yada. While he was in that relationship with another girl, I decided to deactivate my social media just so I would stop myself from stalking them and focus on me.ย
Every morning I would do Agnes's self love meditations and the H'oponono prayer, because I felt like I needed to alleviate the anxiety and heartbreak I was feeling. I didn't even visualize at all. All I did was Agne's self love meditations and her 'send unconditional love' meditation. That's it.ย
I started feeling good about myself, felt more calm and collected. In fact, my friends said I'm much more calm now and in fact, i barely talked about my boyfriend like how I used to. i mean sure I'd bring up his name here and there but nothing too crazy.ย
So, after 3 months of social media hiatus, I decided to go back on social media and surprisingly, i didn't feel as needy as I used to be. I stopped having this need of wanting to 'impress' him or get his attention through my Instagram stories. fyi, we're only friends with each other only on Instagram, so that's the only way he could see my stuff.ย
Anyway, a week ago, after I posted my about my happy outings with my friends on my Instagram story (mind you this time, i didn't post it out of spite, i posted about my outings because I was genuinely having a good time with my friends) and of course, he viewed them !
So... while I was out laughing and having a good time with my friends, SURPRISE! I got a Snapchat friend request from my boyfriend. Boy, was I shocked ! It took him this long to add me on Snapchat ! Again fyi, throughout the 1 year that he ghosted me and me trying to reach out to him, i have attempted to add him on S
Help me align please... ๐ » Inspirational movies about ppl getting back together, and go! » 5/06/2018 3:22 pm |
The Vow.ย
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