For those who are reading this, please don't get discouraged that it "didn't" work for me. LOA really helped bring myself back. LOA has helped me get out of two scenarios that I really didn't want to take place recently, such as
(1) finding a way to cancel a california trip with someone that I really did not want to go with. I was going to force myself to go because it was too late to cancel and get a refund for my ticket. But then, the day before, I got a pill stuck in my throat. Although, this doesn't sound pleasant, I was actually very thankful because it gave me a medical emergency to get refunded for my plane ticket as well as a reason for not going.
(2) I also didn't want to travel to chicago this weekend for this bachelorette party, but a few days ago, I got appendicitis. So, I got surgery. This also gave me a reason to not attend without hurting anyone's feelings. I've been able to rest at home and be taken care of from A-Z, which is something that never happens. 

I am thankful even though I had to go through some physical pain, but it was all worth it. Thank you Universe. 

Wow, Cynthia. Your answers are always on point. Whenever I receive advice from you, it always sounds like it's coming from Neville himself but easier to understand. Thank you so so much for your advice. 

I guess a question that's been on my mind in regards to LOA teachings is that it seems that time and "how" is something that can't be included in a desire. What if someone's desire involves a time component or a scenario on how they'd like a situation to act out as? I'm not sure on how to word my question, but what is the difference in desiring a specific thing versus desiring "how" and "when" that specific thing should happen. Why is the second option something that generally doesn't work or is advised not to desire? It is not something that one can truly desire? Just a question out of curiosity.  

Thanks again for your help Cynthia! You are like neville's reincarnation! You always manage to bring me back up again.  

Ever since joining this forum, I've been truly flying higher than I ever did. However, I realized that I've been vibrating lower for these past few days. I told myself that I would be back in a committed and loving relationship with my love by the time I graduate. I have 12 more days until that day. And although I know that time is something that I shouldn't focus on and that it doesn't truly exist, I realized that it's making me anxious.

I've also been struggling a bit more with my visualizations and techniques. They are starting to feel more like work to me than things that I actually want to do that makes me feel better. I've also been a lot more easily irritable at people, including my friends. Which, I know is a sign that I need to take a break.

At this point, I feel like giving up and I've been going back and forth between doubting and believing within the same day. I need help on bringing myself back up again. It's weird, because I am confident that I love myself, so I know that it's not because I am lacking self-love. I can't wrap my mind around what is bothering me or creating a force or doubt between me and my manifestation. Ignoring the current reality has gotten more difficult. However, I'm also at a place where I'd prefer to have my love, but I'm also feeling the "f**k it, if it doesn't happen attitude". 

I need help realigning. 

I deactivated my Facebook account. It not only helps me not "stalk" him but it makes me feel better as an individual because Facebook makes me compare myself to so many people, which is not healthy. He never blocked me though, so I am very thankful for that. Another thing that helped was that I deleted my Instagram and snapchat apps on my phone as well as in my bookmarks. You can even go the extra stretch to block certain websites on your computer. 

Also, do not shame yourself for your "setbacks". It does nothing but make yourself feel worse about your progress. Remember to love yourself and forgive yourself and reassure to the universe that these actions have no effect on the manifestation process. 

You got this 

I am grateful for my car because it keeps me warm while traveling and it's a fast method to travel.
I am grateful for the strength of my car and my driving skills because it kept me from being safe during the snow storm.
I am grateful for my friends because they provide me with a lot of support and love.
I am grateful for being accepted and liked within my community because it makes me feel included.
I am grateful for my sp's friend reaching out to me and asking me if I was joining their party tonight because it means they like me regardless of the "current reality".
I am grateful for my money because I am able to purchase things at ease.
I am grateful for my luck because I won a gift card today.
I am grateful for my sp's brothers talking to me and laughing with me because that means they respect me.
I am grateful for my wardrobe because I am access to beautiful clothing.
I am grateful for my health and my healing because it keeps me alive.
I am grateful for my sp because he allowed me to journey through a wonderful self-loving mission.

Thank you for delivering everything I desire to me universe. Thank you, Thank you, Thank you.