I am not doing very good at the manifestion on with getting my ex back. Sometimes I feel like it’s almost impossible to get her back. We broke up 3 months ago, she immediately had a back up option with some guy. She won’t admit that they were talking prior but I know for a fact they were. Anyways we were together for 6 years and she cheated on me. I know it seems bad that I want her back but I really do love here and I have been no saint either. We connected on so many levels, had plans for marriage and kids.  The problem is like she changed into a totally different person once she left. Very cold, distant and very secretive. She will reach out at times and ask how I’m doing but she is very dry. I started the NC ,after 2 weeks I sent a clean slate letter which she hasn’t bothered to read. Because I did ask her to stay and tried to convince her how much I love her which I heard you shouldn’t do.She text 2weeks into the NC asking me how I was doing, we texted all day but nothing that lead anywhere. We talked the next day as well she was warm but now I sent her a text no reply that was 3 days ago. That’s when I realized that yesterday I was blocked on Instagram. She doesn’t respond back to anything now. What the heck did I do wrong?

I been on and off with the LOA and maybe I’m to impatient but it’s been 3 months and we have yet to get closer. She seems so angry whenever she has seen me to get her stuff and when I text or call she immediately will get upset over something small and blame me. Since she left she has literally blamed the whole situation on me. I think to justify her cheating. I try to learn how to control my emotions to show her I’m listening but I get so nervous that I ramble and do more of the talking. I scripted a letter to the universe and all that has happened was her now blocking me on social media. Why is It working in reverse? What am I doing wrong? Yes I’m still very hurt and some days feel unbearable. I can’t seem to get out of my head the night she cheated because I was there but in another room. I see all these success stories but I can’t seem to manifest her back. 6 years of spending everyday together and now she won’t even bother to see me, call, barely text. She literally has put up a wall and gives me no sign of hope. She even expressed that she doesn’t feel the same way about me or doesn’t care if I find someone new, yet she blocks me on social media because she doesn’t want to see how good I’m doing.

I am asking because I have seen stories where people have stated there said that and more and they were able to get them back and a third party involved. PLEASE HELP ME! I did buy the book but haven’t stuck to it daily as I get discouraged. I scour the  internet for info but I’m having no luck. I can barely eat, sleep, or concentrate as my mind always wanders to bad and I can’t seem to stop it. I’m finding it hard to raise my vibration as one day I’m good the next I’m not. How do you stick with this? Now I don’t put much thought into the third party but I feel like as the more time goes by the more she will fall for him. She spends hours a day talking to him (he lives in another city). I only know cuz I saw the phone bill. 🤦🏽‍♀️ I’m nervous about this, she is becoming more and more distant which is why I feel like that. I just want to get her back.

Last thing, if you did get your ex back how do you keep it?
I get nervous that things wouldn’t be the same.