Thank you for your reply. What you said reminds me of the power of now. Then, I'll be focused on now and this day and not to "the rest of my life", as I used to think. This made me furstrated because I thought that I should think of something, how would I be for the rest of my life.

Thank you both of you for your replies  

barbidoll, I feel that I have to pass from girlhood in order to satisfy some desiresf from there and close the gap, things that I wanted and didn't have. Maybe I can't move on, I will have first to pass from there and womanhood will come naturally, I won't have to force myself to feel this way. I think this is what you say and I agree because I feel this way. There's something that doesn't let me move on because there are things that left in girlhood that haven't yet experienced. 

You do not have to pick and choose one version of yourself because we are multi-dimensional beings and have many aspects of ourselves. I would pick with visualizing yourself to be the woman who is already inside of you. Inside of you, there lives a woman who is dying to come out. She is the woman who is connected to the great spirit, to the Earth and to the stars. She is the woman who remembers that the divine intelligence lives inside of her and she doesn’t have to do anything but get out of her own way and listen. She is the woman who has already attained inner peace because she views everything on this Earth as sacred, including herself. Focus on letting go of what you are not, because who you are is already alive inside of you! She is just hiding under misaligned thoughts

Julie- Love and Happiness Coach

Thank you, thatnk you for your beautiful post. I will follow your advice and the expercise with the mirror as well. I need to embrace this child and teen in me that feels so bad. It needs love and acceptance.