It is because you don't have a good handle on LOA yet.  If you did,  you would know that you're clearly only a rebound for him because that is what you've defined - no one else.

There isn't any need to feel stupid. You just got what you expected and became what you defined yourself as.  It can be fixed by you switching this around. 

For starters,  I'd focus on getting out of the runt. You're listing out all of these bad things.  Try starting with a gratitude journal. Each day, write 3-4 things from that day that you're grateful for.  Sometimes it helps to be able to see that your life has good parts to it

Avaelle wrote:

There isn't any need to feel stupid. You just got what you expected and became what you defined yourself as.  It can be fixed by you switching this around. 

For starters,  I'd focus on getting out of the runt. You're listing out all of these bad things.  Try starting with a gratitude journal. Each day, write 3-4 things from that day that you're grateful for.  Sometimes it helps to be able to see that your life has good parts to it

Thank you, I will try this! xxx
 

Meg2222 wrote:

jensherratt wrote:

Stop focusing on the current reality and start again.

Ask for what it is you want and visualise it.

Thank you, on my lunch break I wrote out a revised message that I want to receive and also what I am grateful for. Thanks xxx

 
That's great