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Couple of days ago i had a really bad day, i realize now that i chose all those feelings and so with the kind words of someone on this forum i was able to refocus and bring myself to a neutral place and i was happy with that because it was so much better then where i was the day before.
Then the Universe brought you to me and i felt instant joy. As I stepped in the lobby, there you were with a colleague. I was stopped to put on my gloves and to fish out my keys. Your colleague came over to say hello and we exchanged a few words. As you tried to engage me this woman came out of nowhere and literally became a human block between you and me. My first reaction was hey, that's not very nice, but then i knew to refocus and feel good again. No matter how you tried to step around her she would step with you and continue to block. I actually felt amuse at your demise. Your eyes searching for mine with a pleading of save me. As I took two steps to leave, in an exaggerated motion you stepped around her and said: Were you gonna leave without saying hello? I simply said you appeared busy and smiled. You then told me i'm never too busy for you. I said: it's good to know and we were at the door and I said see you soon. For the first time ever you reached for my arm, maybe to stop me from going, i was shocked and touched by the gesture and once again you looked into my eyes as only you can and said, Yes really soon. In that moment i felt it all, time stood still and everything around us seem to stop. It was one of those moments. Yesterday was totally unexpected and i know a message from the Universe. It was just an affirmation to me that you are moving in my direction.
I take away from this that perhaps: i've relied on you to much for my happiness and truly just being happy with myself brings you to me. I have a strong sense that you are feeling me and my appreciation for you and you are finally coming to terms that I may just be a good thing for you. I'm on the right tract again and i need to continue sending my love to you and appreciating everything about you and i need to stay happy with where I am.
So i'm posting all this because it just feels good to let it out and feeling good is my mission.
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Wow this is really beautiful to me, it made me feel so much better. Thank you for posting this. I'm glad you were able to refocus, I tend to react without thinking first.
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Thank you MF3... it's easy to react sometime without thinking, I'm glad i did pull it together quickly. Then the situation was actually funny to me.