aww big blue i love you! you remind me so much of myself.

there was a time i really could not use facebook at all because it hurt so much. people were getting engaged and married left right and centre and though i blocked my guy (long story lol) i worried that without my knowing he would be engaged too.

he is free, he was free, and he wants me.
no, he hasn't said it yet but he does want me and no matter what happens part of him always will.

i feel this despair over social media some days when i am really down. and you know what? i just decided to stop using it altogether. i feel so much more free without it.

FOMO (fear of missing out) is an illusion just as any other fear. everything is coming to you at the right time. keep raising your vibration until you can ease yourself into positive alignment. patience is so important. being impatient is just creating resistance.

settle into knowing that it is all on the right path, remember all you need to take care of is your own positivity and of course, making people around you happy, i'm sure you do already, and the higher you rise the closer you will be to your desires fulfilled.

i could be wrong but i think that often the top vibration is where you ironically do not even need your desire any more, when you are free and allowing anything at all to happen. someone can correct me of course. 





 

When you're feeling this bad, you need to perhaps get off the topic of the guy. You have to do things to find your alignment. Saying "when will it be my turn" is ok, we've all been there.. but know that it's absolutely delaying him coming back. If you can work on raising your vibration because YOU want to have a wonderful life for YOU, then that feeling will actually vanish. And Dynamochick is right.. When you tap into that energy, you won't miss them at all. And ironically, that is when he will reappear!

Your turn will come soon enough, so just focus on you and how wonderful you are and let yourself attract all the beauties that life has to offer

Ask yourself why you feel "when will it be my turn" or you feel some jealousy or sadness. Sit with it and see what thoughts come up. It's okay to feel this way, it's natural and expected but remember that you're still so young and life has so many opportunities. 

I want to share a story with you: A family friend had two daughters: one got married very young and had kids and a loving husband. The other daughter hadn't dated until her first husband who she met when she was thirty? or so. Everyone gossiped about her and felt so bad that such a lovely girl had no boys interested in her (as if being single and not having a partner means your unworthy, or other negative associations our society implicates on being single *note the sarcasm*). Pretty soon, she met someone, got married and had kids and she is happy and loved.

My point in sharing this story is that you should not worry about anyone else or other relationships or what other people say or what society subtly forces on us about getting married earlier, and how questionable it is to be single or unmarried well into your thirties. I know we still worry anyway, but we are all on different paths and journeys. So what if you get married when you're 31? What if youre in the most amazing relationship ever? Does being married at 31 or 37 take away from that? Ask yourself why youre impatient too - do you feel its impossible or you don't deserve it since you say "when will it be my turn?" Sit with those thoughts for a bit cause they're there within you and it's better to address them and ask yourself why youre feeling this way. Perhaps journalling? 

Also, I understand the social media posting but ask yourself, why do you want to post about it on social media? Do you feel you want others to know youre happy and in a relationship? I hope that doesn't come off as rude, I can relate to it so I understand, but it's just a thought to think about.💖✨