Hi! I thought I'd start my own thread to track my journey and hopefully get words of encouragement from like-minded individuals.

Quick background: my guy and I broke up a month ago over a fight (which I started). He said he was tired of the cycle. I was depressed and moping for 3 weeks until something clicked December 27: I wasn't going to get him back by being sad (I was thinking of the many ways to kill myself; suicidal ideation has always been a problem for me) so I made a conscious choice to get out of my rut. Almost immediately, I felt lighter.

I declared out loud to the Universe that I accept the break-up and sent out a request to bring us back together when we're both ready. I know that this happened for a reason and is where we have to be right now. I have no doubt that we belong together and that we'll be together again some day. Until then, I will fill myself with as much love and happiness as I can while also working towards being the person he inspired me to be (I used to be really mean-spirited but he is such a nice, lovely guy and he inspired me to be kind).

That same day, I thought of him but with love and fondness (instead of desperation) and sent those feelings out to him, wherever he may be. A few minutes later, I checked my phone and saw that he had messaged me! We had a friendly conversation that night and the next night and the night after that. Come NYE, I wanted him to message me first and he did. 

We don't talk daily (our last conversation was Friday) but he likes my posts on Facebook almost every day. I'm trying not to read too much into it because it only confuses me. I know that when the time is right, things will fall into place. I got home from holidays tonight and I put out our photos and displayed them on my bookshelf. 

I feel so giddy all of a sudden! I was mostly indifferent about things the whole day but typing this has put a smile on my face.