I'm still learning how to perfect the art of loa myself. My advice though. Completely forget your story. You need to forgive yourself and your partner and move on from the past. Focus on the future and what you want to create. My girl gets picked up and dropped off by my obstacle every day for work. I call him an obstacle because that's what it is. You also know what they say about obstacles. They're only illusions. Just keep focusing on the desired reality.

Well I think I'm doing this right. I'm finally to the point where my mind isn't sporadic anymore. Lots of meditation and affirming that I'm in control of my thoughts and no one is responsible for how I feel. Whenever a thought enters my head such as, well she's still with that guy. I just label it what it is. An obstacle and affirm all obstacles are illusions and I have the power. It feels quite awesome to feel this power. What I want to know is how will I know when I'm ignoring reality versus resisting it? Will it be as simple as physically feeling tension somewhere in my body?

Then if I was able to live whole hearted in the reality that she apologized and wanted to move back in. She would pretty much overnight?

Yea I'd like to do this, but I feel me asking if I should is a way that I'm trying to force an outcome. In a way I'm not putting my full faith. I'm not sure yet though lol.

Yea it's the title to a Foo Fighters song

I decided not that I'm in an awesome place I'd chronicle my journey. I'm only going to brush on the breakup. Well when it happened I wanted it to be over. In the literal sense. I was really ready I didn't care anymore. The only thing that kept me from it was one of my best friends commited suicide earlier this year and it tore everyone up inside. His inner pain may have been put to rest but it only transferred to everyone that loved him and there were a lot of people that did. Anyway I didn't do it. I then thought well I'll just become an alcoholic **** it. Now I'm sober for a whole month I almost never thought I would be able to.

Something inside me wanted otherwise. Something inside me didn't want to give up on this wonderful woman that I love so much. I had tried the law of attraction before on a different ex, but I gave up after a couple weeks. Knowing what I know now I realized I wasn't doing it right. I was always coming from a place of need towards that ex and then I found someone different and gave up on the desire.

This time it's different. After all my relationships I know what it means to love someone versus love the idea. I truly love this person I'm attracting. I've finally got to the point where I want her. I don't need her. I'm having the time of my life being single and having fun. I'm not dating as I kinda feel wrong about doing it. Almost like cheating lol. I'm able to keep my vibration on high throughout the day whereas just a week ago it was constantly up and down. I started working out and I love what I see whenever I pass my reflection. But loving myself brings me warm feelings inside. I finally have myself back.

Now I'm finally in the place I need to be. I'm going full steam ahead. I have all the tools I need. Last night I was working with her. I feel no tension when I see her anymore. My mind and body are just so relaxed and moving with the flow. She's still not talking to me. I didn't let