Okay okay, I remember someone on this forum told me that focusing on the anxiety brings more anxiety. My anxiety is on and off and I am noticing that I can be happy and have anxiety at the same time. But that is because I am used to being negative. So this time, I took the advice of not feeding the anxiety and just thought happy thoughts. Little by little my anxiety began to fade and it made me very happy. So from now on when my anxiety arises I will feed my anxiety warm embraces and love. To show I acknowledge her and that I care about her. She's only like that because she is trying to protect me after all.

I do my best to work with my anxiety, try to remind myself I have control. Well, I have been writing this letter that I want to give him when we reunite with each other and it helps me keep my mind positive.

1. I am scared because I feel my anxiety will slow down my manifestation.
2. I am scared because I feel my darling won't contact me.
3. I am scared because I feel my darling won't get back together with me.
4. I am scared because I feel my darling will go with the other girl.
5. I am scared because I feel my anxiety will never leave.
6. I am scared because I feel I will never get the life I want.
7. I am scared because I feel I will never learn to let go.
8. I am scared because I feel I will never truly love myself.
9. I am scared because I feel I will never become the free spirit I truly am.
10. I am scared because I feel my resistance will never leave me.

So I noticed that I still have a lot of resistance built up inside me that I am working hard on letting go of. I also have read Cherish's post about living in a moment and being a free spirit. It's funny because even while I was with my darling I wanted to experience that. My problem is that part of doing so I needed to learn to let go of resistance. I am used to constantly thinking negative, but read that when I catch myself to try to think of something positive even if I still don't really feel happy. Which makes sense because creating positive thinking is like forming a healthy habit. It takes time and the more I do it the more natural it will come to me and the less resistance I will have. So I thought about writing my darling a letter on my journey of recreating myself and being in his arms again. I felt this will help with the resistance because it will be a positive  letter. I used to always write him letters in the beginning of our relationship. So do you think it is a good idea?

I saw another post on a different forum where this girl said when they are involved with someone else think like, "That other woman is only a tool for my love to realize I am the one for him. The other woman cannot replace me and my love only loves me, not her." What do you guys think about this?