Thank you to everyone in this forum. I'm so grateful to have a place I can post everything and feel unjudged, free, and supported! I was in another forum that didn't feel that way so I'm glad I found you all.

Since I started this 3 days ago, I have this sense of knowing everything is right and happening. I know Aust is mine. I don't feel it all throughout the day yet. It comes and goes, but I feel it.

Veronica is an awesome coach, by the way. Her advice is perfect for me. She really reads my messages and responds to all my questions in a way I can understand. I feel like she has a grasp on how my brain works already because techniques that seemed not to work for me now do, she just had me do them in a different way.

Aust is in my dreams again for the past two nights. I NEVER dreamt of him before. One dream he came to my mom's to see me and our son on one of my visits to my home state. It wasn't romantic, we just talked and laughed, but his body language was good. The other dream I was on my way to meet him. We had set up meeting each other alone a few days prior. He texted me that he was already at the meeting place, but I was still in the car but close by. He said, "ok, I'll be here waiting." That was the entire dream, just me in the car going to him.

It's huge to me because before I rarely dreamt of him and when I did it was negative. I feel a shift happening. I don't know, I'm pretty excited! 🤗

Perfect timing for me to read this and right after I wake as well.

You've got to love yourself first. If you don't you'll recreate the situations you don't want because you believe you deserve those lacks and bad things. I definitely believe you should only RS and visualize from love and wholeness.

This Christmas will be the most magical one I've had in years. I have the best present in the world: my family together at last. A is planning his immediate move to New York to be with our son and I. I don't visit our home state until January, but that's okay. It'll be worth the wait when I wrap my arms around him. It feels good to have my best friend back. Everything is harmonious now. My grades are wonderful, I have great friends, steady money, and now A. I fall asleep texting him and wake up to his morning calls before he heads to work. His family is accepting of our reconciliation and are supportive of us. I'm looking at new apartments, ready for the day very soon when A will be in my bed and not just seeing him for one week a month.

I am so grateful for the time he gave me to find my own happiness, to stand on my own to feet because it made me move to my home in NYC. I have self esteem and so much more love for people in general. I'm grateful because our new relationship is better than I ever could have imagined because I learned all those lessons. <3

My guy was the same way before we reconnected the first time. He obviously is trying to fight what he feels for you. I'd take it as a positive sign.