Serendipity wrote:

There's a user on here called SelfLoveIsKey who can give you great advice on that topic! 

Thanks! I'm going to look through their posts.
 

The things you said you don't know how to do, if I remember from the deleted thread, were loving yourself and making it consistent and unconditional, not based on the external world, only yourself. One thing that I used to do and have started doing again is meditating on my chakras. This really does balance us emotionally and helps us to develop strength and stability no matter what. I use audios from another relationship coach I was in contact with a few years ago. But there should be some good meditations if you look around on youtube. If that's not your sort of thing, I think any type of meditation would still be helpful, because it sounds like you are feeling a lot of anxiety around the situation, and if you feel anxious and stressed, you won't be able to think clearly or attract good things.

How to have self-love...well, this is a thing I am still figuring out. For me, a big part of it has been getting to the root of many many years of self-worth issues. I've almost resolved it. I think one way to see self-love, is to be able to be in the present moment. To be okay with your own company, in the present moment. It's hard to explain because a lot of these insights have come from some deep exploration I've been doing since my situation came up. It used to annoy me when people said "self-love" because I thought, what is it. Then I thought, maybe it means being kind to ourselves. To me, love is an energy, not a behaviour, so it felt kind of abstract to even think of loving ourselves without thinking of the behaviours that allow us to feel the energy of love...so one example would be to talk to yourself with a kind, encouraging voice instead of being harsh if you're feeling certain emotions that you don't want to feel etc. Accepting your emotions, not judging yourself for having emotions. Kind of like inner child work if you've heard about that. Self acceptance is, for me, another way to say, not abandoning ourselves by rejecting and judging our emotions.

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I'm so happy and grateful he came back to stay here for longer!!!!! :D It's like when we first met, visiting the same beaches, talking, exploring. I was in shock when he told me! Shock and gratitude and awe! I had no words! Thank you thank you THANK YOU UNIVERSEEEEE!!!!!!! :D I've been showing him around to some new places I've found while he was away. He told me he'd missed my massages. Ahhhh this is amazing. THANK...YOU...UNIVERSE!!!!! I knew you were always listening! :D
 

Today has been a great day. Being out in the woods with him was so much fun. We were like kids going on an adventure in a magical forest :D

I looked phenomenal today. My hair is at it's longest length before I usually get it trimmed and was so smooth and silky. My lips were the perfect shade of red like a ripe apple and my skin was glowing. I look so healthy, like an embodiment of the fountain of youth. My energy is calm and present. Completely focused on the present and enjoying. My gaze is steady and confident.

Today I wore shorts and a lumberjack style shirt, with shoes good for walking. We started the day early and drove to the national park by bike. The morning air felt fresh as it rushed past us. It felt great to travel this way, taking in the scenery of the Scottish highlands. I had always wanted to show him this place and I knew he would love it, and he did.

The sunlight was streaming through the trees at the perfect angle when we arrived. I took my helmet off and he locked up the bike. We started walking along the path. Two squirrels were playfully chasing each other up a tree. I love squirrels. We stopped to watch them, listening to the scratching sound of their claws against the tree bark.

We carried on walking for a while until we saw a good route to explore. We stepped over a fallen tree branch and waded through taller shrubs, along the narrow path. We reach a high place that overlooked a large area of the forest that shone a thousand shades of green like a myriad of emeralds. I felt so joyful. I had been wanting to spend some more time in forests and today was perfect.

We continued on and I had the impulse to go over to the other side of the area we had been looking at from a height.We found a way accross and to our surprise, down the hill lay a meadow full of the brightest flowers. Bluebells, daffodils, all sorts of flowers I didn't know the name of and some other plants I recognized as being native to Scotland. The sweet smell of all the flowers