IMO, we create our own reality.
I used to think that by visualizing my love every now and then would bring him back. Then i contemplated and think i should not "chasing" after him by using my visualizations. I cut my visualization by half the number that I used to do daily, but still looking for signs. I was anticipating the day when all my dreams of having him again come true..anticipated too much that when it did not happen, I got disappointed.
Now, I cut the visualization to the point which i do it only when i feel like i wanted to.
I believe in the result, without waiting for the moment to come.
I detached myself a lot from him, that recently, i decided to visualize another man..an unknown man who I feel like I want to be with and be in love with. His face change from time to time whenever i visualized him, but i feel so happy and exciting whenever i visualize him. The problem was, whenever I visualized him, my love was also there with us in my mind.
Recently, i manage to get my love out of my visualization with this unknown guy. And guess what? I am soooooo much happier.
I miss this faceless unknown guy more than my love. But the way i miss him is different. It makes me happy and smile, happy and sometimes i feel like laughing whenever i think of him.
I miss this beautiful man that I have never met in my life more than the guy i had been with for 3 years, yet I am so happy. Do you girls know the song "I knew I love you before I met you"?
That's how ridiculous my feeling is right now toward this unknown man😃
Where detaching myself from my love used to be very hard that it scared me, it is not anymore!
I feel more relaxed and enjoying every second in my life more than ever!
I'm happy, whether i'll be reunited with my love again or not, i'm sooo happy. In the back of my mind there is a hope of being reunited, but it's no longer as important as it used to be. Being happy and knowing i have the chance to be loved by a beautiful-loving man in the near future is a

So, i date another guy but still working on to manifest my man. Turns out this new guy is just sooo cute. I think i like him now. He has always like me though. I'm practically comparing this new guy with my man now..i feel sorry but not sorry too toward my man. I feel like i deserve to be liked so much by another man and to like him back. My man is dating another woman for months now, i'm not paying him back or anything..i just feel weird when i visualize my man, this new cutie keeps popped up in my head. Anyway, i'm happy and content with what's going on in my life now. I hope i still can manifest my man though.
Is it wrong?

I was enjoying my visualizations and my daily activities, my life..so, i don't think i was trying hard..

Last night somehow, i decided that i want a new guy and a new relationship. Is this mean i have giving up on my love?
At this moment, i'm kind of confuse and sad for giving up but since there's no significant progress for the past 7 months and somehow i feel tired too, is this mean i just have to start moving on with someone else?
No, i haven't meet anyone yet, but the expectation for meeting-being with a new guy and get back with my love almost as tiring..
Sorry if i sound weak..but i'm very tired now..please advice/inspire me whatever..

Happy belated birthday! Don't give up!