just an update and this is crazy
any explanation is welcome...
today I was fI'll of love and sent my sweetheart lots of kind messages but as soon as I tried to get deep into what happened he blocked me
..I know that he can't deal with his feelings and I am kinda sick of his behaviour not sure I want this relationship anymore...sick of being blocked and unblocked...it had been more than a year now dealing with this ....I am moving on unless God had a different plan
all the best to all of you

I am very happy today ...we are back together. I was the one who left him though some sort of misunderstanding ...I sent him a very bad letter and he blocked me...since then I couldn't stop thinking about him but I broke the rule and wrote to him to explain myself ...then after a couple of months ...voila we are back and better than ever...just to mention he was the  first love of my life...he contacted me on Facebook and we fell madly in love again after too many years...sad it is a long distance relationship. 
Wish you all luck and happiness
do not despair...if you are thinking obsessively about somebody he will be thinking about you...I believe