Sorry, I realized that I posted it in the wrong category. Can someone move it? Thank you so much!

So, I really want to share with all of you my recent experience with Bashar!

Yesterday I went to the Bashar's event with a friend not familar with Bashar before, but she felt so life changing after the night. We were also lucky ones having the great chance to sit in front. I saw Darryl/Bashar just right in front of us. When Darryl was Darryl, he smiled and talked like us. And when he became Bashar, he breathed extremely loud and his body emitted huge sounds (which I believe a normal person cant create such sounds). He responded to questions so fast that we needed to be very focused in order to reasonate with him. I believed there was also an incredible energy in the air that helped us connect with him, allowing us to get his ideas clearly, although we could not quickly recall his sentences and take notes. This is the first time I feel like we really can communicate without language! We also purchased audio recordings after the event. According to the host, Bashar's documentary will be released in sept, and they will include a part that shows a drastic 'brain frequency change' while darryl turns to Bashar. The whole experience with Bashar is beyond mind blowing.

Bashar teaches us a very incredible life changing technique, which is to re-create your past through steps in meditation. If you can rewrite your past, rewrite your story, your future events will be changed. You become disconnected from the negative effects of your past, and become a NEW YOU with a new history.

1. Neutralize the story. Pick a negative story from your past. Break down the impactful elements from that story. For example, an negative story can be 'Your father beats you.'  The elements from the story can be 'you were left in a dark room', 'you were hungry and feeling hopeless'. Mark those elements as 'scene A, B, C' and so on.

2. Starting from scene A, replay that scene in your brain, you dont see you, instead you see a person who looks like you in the scene, you feeling nothing just like w

Thank you Aphrodite, cherished, safety pin, sanshi, inloveandsohappytogether, for your answers!! They are very very helpful answers!!
In fact, I had a difficult time trying to live 'as if' because thoughts of past are rampant.
This weekend, I attended bashar's events. I saw him in person. OMG Mind blowing and I feel like my life is changing. today's event 'the story tree' is about changing your so called past = future changing. I learnt the technique from bashar. But when I was trying to bring back the memories of the past and remake them, When I remember them again I could not help crying. And then I went to check his social media and I saw that current woman's recent posts with my guy. She is posting a lot more than of their pictures than ever. And, I felt more and more ok seeing things like this. And actually, I can sense her insecurity trying to hold on to my guy writing and convincing he should forget about his past with me, which just proves my guy must be still missing me. So, I take this as a positive sign. I'm sorry if this sounds confusing. I know I'm on the right path, I know I have changed my past to a completely different story already.

Seriously, I wanted to give up a while ago, because sometimes I had feelings of not freeing myself if I hold on to manifesting him. I would wonder if I could just forget about him and feel happier, if I give up on getting him back? but then I realize giving up = give up the chance of getting myself in alignment, finding my true self. 

inloveandsohappytogether, I like what you wrote in your thread that Veronica told you, 'if you don't work to manifest this one you'll never know
you can manifest him and then pick someone else if down the line you change your mind but this one is your opportunity to find out how magical things can really be. ' 
This is very very inspiring!
 
Let go, but keep going, power of paradox. How exciting!
 
Thank you everyone for supporting me and I love all of you!