I finally messaged him after I was able to relax the following day. After our plans had fallen through, he's started to act really weird. He jokes around but it's now to the point where it's not even funny or cute, it's just really weird and kinda rude. I do think he;s trying to be funny as I know he has a very weird sense of humor, so I am not too worried about it. Anyways, I asked him if he was free Monday night for our reschedule and instead starts joking around again and never answers the question, then he suddenly stops responding. What I find weird is later that night, I saw that he was watching my posts. So I don't know what his deal is. Yesterday after a day of silence (the day I had asked if he was free to hang out that night for our reschedule) he texted me something really stupid that made no sense so I didn't even bother replying. I sort've did what he did to me, which I know is wrong but at the same time, I didn't see the point in even responding to the message and left it at that. I don't know what his deal is.

I know I am going to get the whole, you create your reality and you caused this. In a way, I did receive that weird text yesterday. After he ghosted me I was like he'll text me eventually and i strongly believed he would and I let it go, and low and behold, I did receive a text, and sooner than I expected. Not what I wanted, but a text nonetheless. 

What should I do moving forward, I like him but he's really confusing lol

Found this guy online and I've been crushing on him for a while. weird thing is he has a lot of follower and inly follows a little bit of people, and he happened to follow me back.

I finally found the perfect moment and took the chance and i messaged him. within minures he responded to me! we chatted for a a couple of days about things like hikes etc, and the conversation lasted until he just stop responding in the vening. I am not sure if he forgot to reply because he wasnt rude at all in his other message, i don't really know. anyways i upload videos on my story and despite the fact the he didn't reply to my last message he watches my stuff still (the recent ones which is odd) and likes me pics. its been two days since we talked. 

buta part of me is trying to now give him my number. I am really nervous just to send him the message and say hey i think you are attractive here is my number, maybe we can grab a drink sometime.

what do i do? I'm really nervous 

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SO since the last time I spoke on here, I been giving you updates. I had two exes come back and apologize. I have had a lot of guys start taking interest in me.

anyways I am talking to a new guy and I like him. he's sweet, insanely attractive and i actually attracted him, I saw him and knew I wanted him and we actually have gone on dates and talk frequently... but...

After really not paying any mind to the guy I originally came here for, and really just doing me and not focusing on how long it's been, being left etc...

since talking to this new guy... old feelings are returning... I miss my guy... I am not depressed or sad in the slightest.

 think I have finally accepted what happen and have let go. BUT after doing so good, these feelings of missing him are slowly creeping in. I don't take it that I have failed as I am doing me but I don't know why these feelings are coming back. 

I don't know why he hasn't made any attempt to reach out to me. My other exes have it's so strange.

Weird **** happened.

I reactivated my Facebook account and I found an ex from high school a few days ago (not the guy I have been trying to attract). Haven't spoken to this ex in years. low and behold I get a friend request from him this morning.

So far I have now gotten contact from 2 exes. Now we wait and see if the most recent one (the lover who I joined this forum for) will message me. I'm giving my love till the end of the year as an experiment.

I am shocked I manifest ex number 2 super quickly. Let's see if he tries  to talk to me now.

Thank you cherished.

i haven't done any rs or anything. i havent focused on him because i know i wasn't in a happy place when i did rs or anything. it was desperate.  I don't know if it's wrong that i havent done rs, but i just feel like i don't have to. I really am practicing self love, being selfish, and falling in love with the new relationship i have with myself.

now i don't feel the need to do rs because... i just am leaving it to fate now. like i said the universe knows what i want and have trust it'll bring me what i want when it comes. i just took him off the pedestal and really made myself a huge priority.

other guys have shown up but i have no interest. its nice and am happy and am in love with the attention but thats all it is, just attention i dont want them or desire them.

I haven't been on here much because i really have been doing me and am happy. I am beyond happy with life and how i have evolved since coming here. you have been such an immense help to me along with a lot of people here.

my journey turned out not at all how i expected. its crazy that i am now here... and am actually happy with myself. things work in such strange ways and its great.