So i should share i totally manifested a guy who i freaking ADORE. Ever since I was a teen i said i wanted a country man who is big, loud, handsome, smart and will spoil me.

I manifested my move to Houston from DC and within 3 months met him.

Anyway..we got in a huge fight last weekend. I saw him get s nite from a dating site and lost my ****.After all this time of dating i felt how are you still looking and packed my things to leave for the airpoirt while we were outta town.

As im leaving him he says im not on the site.  Tries to explain i cut him off and leave.

Issue is is that we were on vacation and i was leaving him in Colorado.

We finally spoke this past Thursday  and he shares he was mad because i never asked him..just accused him..and if im honest..i get ads from them all the time and ok i get it i shoulda asked.

Worse part is he was mad because i was gonna leave him in another state. I didnt go..but i planned in it..and you know what i see how he is upset.

I have apologized since but he barely answers. He said that it's a deal breaker and even though we can fix it he feels as though it makes for a real future. And boy that hurts because i should have talked about it vs blew it up.

Because im SO wrong...im having trouble focusing and getting back on my good feeling flying plane.

How do you do it when youre wrong? Any advise? Anyone been wrong and fixed it? Thanks in advance guys!