I feel really desperate and sad. Because I know that if  it takes a more than month , so I do something wrong. Its desperate if I know, that already exist a reality where Im with him right now and happy and Im still in this sad reality without him.I try two years so I know, I do something wrong. I did rs, visualisation but I stopped it ,because  I was tired and I always manifested just one night with him or message. I did selflove things and focus and yourself and I always manifested similar things. I was decided give up him and let him go and he texted me. But I never manifestes a relationship with him again..this week I try this technique and I feel good and hopefully, but today I feel depressed. I dont want imagine and I dont want just focus on yourself and bla bla. I just simply be with him now, immediatelly.. so many people dont have a friends or when they found a boyfriend, girlfriend , so they are always with him and forget on friends and  hobbies and their relationship is still good. So why I have to  happy without him just with my friends or my hobbies..I  want be happy with him too..I want a holiday with him .I want a watch tv in his huge and forget about a world...Sorry for a depressed post, but Im really tired.