Lately I've been finding that my vibration is so low. I am not motivated to do ANYTHING. It is so frustrating and I feel so numb and like i'm moving through the course of my life with foggy glasses on. I just feel so blah. I keep up with my routine of meditation, gratitude but at this point I don't even feel any heart energy at all. So how can that be? I don't want to try at anything; nothing is important. I have a history of depression but I know it isn't that. I feel confident and i Love myself but is that really true? I don't know how to cultivate the love for myself anymore. Secondly, this is really beginning to affect my relationship. It has been such a beautiful relationship for almost a year and i could care less. I'm manifesting my boyfriend talking down to me, disrespecting me and it has me questioning trust in our relationship. I know this is me, i'm doing this....so how do i find happiness in myself again? 

thanks in advance.