Hi everyone, I could really use some advice.  I am currently married in a highly emotionally abusive situation.  My husband is a narcissist, and I am not in a financial position to leave him right now.  None of my family or friends are able to help me and I'm tired of feeling bad all the time.  I keep trying to raise my vibration and be positive, but whenever I do, he finds a way to tear me back down to zero.  Is there something I can do to make this situation better right now?  Can anyone give me ideas for a specific visualization to help?  He is really wearing me down and I am beginning to become extremely depressed and losing my desire for anything in life.  I work full time and I am taking evening classes, so I am working hard to free myself but it does not seem like anything is going to happen for a few years until I get my degree and find a better paying job.  I have been selling everything I own to get more money and try to pay down some debt, which I am working on digging myself out of.  My car has 240k miles on it and I'm scared to death that if it breaks down I will really be trapped because I have no extra money to buy one or even make payments.  My credit score dropped when I closed my accounts and my debt to income ratio was too high.  I feel trapped and miserable and I try so hard to visualize and stay positive but he is so oppressive.  I have to hide my LOA stuff from him because he laughs at it and thinks I'm crazy to believe.  Everything I do is the wrong thing, he literally follows me around the house telling me the stuff I do wrong.  I'm clumsy, I spill things, I drop things, I'm damaging the house by dropping utensils on the hardwood floor (by accident when I'm washing dishes).  It's just a constant barrage of negativity from him.  And I feel lonely because we don't have a real relationship.  We don't touch, we don't spend time doing things together.  I cringe whenever he comes home because I know I will either be ignored and treated like a servant, or criticized.  Please help me pull out of this, I need ideas.  I feel blocked and I know that by even typing this I am saying negative statements but I just want to give you an idea of my situation.  Thank you to anyone who can help.