Self love. Start there it sounds like you are too desperate for this which is why it isn’t happening.

I was having a discussion with someone last night about something like this which happened to me a long time ago, when I was 18. I met a guy in a bar one Saturday night. I went there every Saturday with my friend and he was there with his mates. We all had a lot of banter over three consecutive Saturday nights. On the last Saturday, my friend vanished. I'd missed the bus and this guy gave me a lift. We snogged and cuddled in his car. He told me he was going to work away for two weeks but we would go out when he returned. I went to the bar on the first Saturday night he was back and he blanked me, saying he didn't feel the same. I took it all too seriously and almost destroyed myself trying to "get him back".

I was obsessed. I started a summer job before university and told my work colleagues I was upset as I'd split with my fiancé. Of course he was nothing of the sort. I never got with him again, maybe for the best. But is always felt uncomfortable about lying. I wasn't trying to "act as if" as I'd never heard of law of attraction.

What I think was going on was that I knew, maybe subconsciously, that giving this much energy to a person I'd known for only nine hours maximum was ridiculous and anyone who found that out would think I was ridiculous too, and quite rightly so. Someone like that doesn't deserve that much energy. I also didn't like myself for making up a pack of lies.

Obviously my feelings were tricking me, and I made the fiancé story up to give gravitas to something that was essentially nothing. The knowledge has been so liberating.

So please stop beating yourself up, move on in the direction you want to go.

Last edited by PrettyFlamingo (7/16/2018 11:26 am)

PrettyFlamingo wrote:

I was having a discussion with someone last night about something like this which happened to me a long time ago, when I was 18. I met a guy in a bar one Saturday night. I went there every Saturday with my friend and he was there with his mates. We all had a lot of banter over three consecutive Saturday nights. On the last Saturday, my friend vanished. I'd missed the bus and this guy gave me a lift. We snogged and cuddled in his car. He told me he was going to work away for two weeks but we would go out when he returned. I went to the bar on the first Saturday night he was back and he blanked me, saying he didn't feel the same. I took it all too seriously and almost destroyed myself trying to "get him back".

I was obsessed. I started a summer job before university and told my work colleagues I was upset as I'd split with my fiancé. Of course he was nothing of the sort. I never got with him again, maybe for the best. But is always felt uncomfortable about lying. I wasn't trying to "act as if" as I'd never heard of law of attraction.

What I think was going on was that I knew, maybe subconsciously, that giving this much energy to a person I'd known for only nine hours maximum was ridiculous and anyone who found that out would think I was ridiculous too, and quite rightly so. Someone like that doesn't deserve that much energy. I also didn't like myself for making up a pack of lies.

Obviously my feelings were tricking me, and I made the fiancé story up to give gravitas to something that was essentially nothing. The knowledge has been so liberating.

So please stop beating yourself up, move on in the direction you want to go.

PrettyFlamingo thank you so much for replying to me. Weirdly enough I still want to manifest my SP. I am not forcing anything but rather now i am just talking to him and enjoying whatever time i get chatting to him through text. He is still with someone else but I am hoping that maybe one day I'll be able to manifest a relationship with him. How do you suggest I go about manifesting him now? I dont want to lie about it anymore. Do you have any techniques that you use that has worked for you?

I have manifested a few things by lying about it. I never thought they would actually come through because I knew I was lying through my teeth. Thank Go no one caught me in the lie. At least they are real now. LOL!!!

ChaliceSnowFlower wrote:

I have manifested a few things by lying about it. I never thought they would actually come through because I knew I was lying through my teeth. Thank Go no one caught me in the lie. At least they are real now. LOL!!!

LOL Chalice what do you mean you lied about it? Like how I lied in my post?? :'D