I can totally relate to this feeling. I've carried it around for months. I've been aware of the feeling but I didn't realise that I resist my own desire. The most important step for me was to realise that it was resistance and stop fighting against it. Holistichealing said that resistance comes from trying to control the situation. That made me think and I gave up the need to control and put it in the hands of my higher self. It maybe took me two weeks to get rid of it completely after carrying it around for nearly 7 months. It feels so good to not resist anything. <3
"Self-abandonment. That is the secret. We have to abandon ourselves to the state, in our love for the state, and in so doing live the life of the state and no more our present state. And to make the state alive, one must become it."
Neville Goddard ~ The Law and the Promise