He would go to me with open arms reaching out to me, I would push him away. He would have a pained expression on his face, he just wants me to tell him what is wrong, so he can help me. I tell him that I am fine. He said he can't do anything to help with that piece of information. I would just sigh and look away.

He always holds me close to him, I am his world. When we first started dating he had a dream that I no longer loved him and he was crying saying, "Why couldn't it be her?" His biggest fear was me no longer loving him. That memory was long gone from my mind as I became cold towards him.

I never initiated saying I love you unless he said it. He was always the one being affectionate towards me. He was always the one bragging about me, little things hurt him because of one single thought that he had. That I no longer loved him. He would get upset if he thought I never told any friends about us dating, he would get upset whenever I never said I loved him, that I would push him away.

I was scared too, that's why I kept running away. While he kept trying to fix everything. What was I doing? I really do love him. Why the secrets? Why the lies? This is not what I promised him....Our last night together before I was sent back home was the most heart breaking moment. We shared another night together, I was scared to say the L word. When all he wanted was for me to tell him I was sorry and I love him, while I hug him. He would have stayed....

Fast forward to now, we are speaking to each other and seeing each other again. Everytime I see him I hug him and kiss his cheek. I give him endless compliments and tell him how amazing he is. We would use my selfies stick and take photos together. We would hug each other while cuddling. When he sends me home, I would form a heart with my hands. I would tell him that I love him.

I always send my gratitude for him out to the universe. I always feel his presence with me wherever I go. I know in my heart he is here to stay. I don't have to worry about him. I can enjoy life to the fullest. We would always text each other loving messages. Yes, it has only been a week since we contacted, but I already see a major change. It's pretty clear to me this is definitely long term. I love you, Isaac . I love seeing you happy, it warms my heart. You are a wonderful person with a beautiful soul.

For those who are suffering guilt, you don't need to stay there forever. You love your person and you have the ability to show it. Love heals everything. Much love, Dayanara. 💟🌈

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