Hello all,

So my love came to my home on the weekend. We have been separated for just over 6 months now (and yes we are married), and had not seen each other for the last 3. The last time we were together we had a wonderful 24 hours together....but come the morning she was saying that we could never be together again.

This time she came to collect the last of her belongings with the plan to return to her parent's place which is in another State (12 hours drive from where I am). I wasn't sure how things would go. However, we ended up having a great time together. She ended up staying the entire weekend with me. It was amazing.
It was so good to wake up next to her for 3 mornings, to be with her. It all felt so good. Her kissing me, holding my hand, taking a handful of photos of us together, making love.

We spoke about things....and she kept saying that she felt that the only reason why she hadn't come back to us was this feeling inside of her that just stops her from feeling that she can come back...she couldn't describe it. She said that she used to have this feeling before she became unhappy in our relationship. But now that it is gone, she feels in her heart that she can't come back....even though she keeps saying that she wishes that she could..wishes she could feel what she used to feel.
So now....she is gone. I left her at the apartment this morning when I had to go to work..I didn't want to....she was going to pack her stuff then and leave. We hugged and kissed each other goodbye.

I feel blessed that we had such a wonderful weekend together...but now I'm grieving...Now what can I do?