Oh blessdck and all the rest of you guys... Where have you been all my life?.... Oh that's right... Waiting for me. To find you (or be guided to you) love you all!!

I was thinking that every week everyone should copy paste their original post on this thread and see how much improvement they've made.

The Batman wrote:

Oh wow. Man it's been a hell of a journey. Many times, along the way, I feel batshit (excuse the language) insane for holding out this long. Just now, I cried, not tears of sadness, but tears of joy, because I am legitimately excited for my desire coming. I've wanted to give up many times cause I've seen no progress in all of these months after all the work I've put into retraining my mind specifically for this person, but lately, since I've embraced all of the occasional madness in my head and separated it from the real me in there, whom has given 100% of his faith to the universe, I've had plenty of synchronicity. All roads lead to this specific person, from what I've been told, and I'm not backing away from that, unless the universe gives me a clear cut sign, and I mean CLEAR, to wrap it up. It hasn't done that yet, so I'm not stopping until I get my bonus! It really feels like, as scary as it may seem to some, there truly is no other option for me, and no backing away after all of this (not in the obsessive way, of course). I've laid it all on the line for this, and there is no otherworldly way this won't work in my favor. That is the only thing that feels IMPOSSIBLE!

Hi thebatman...I'm glad you were honest. However I think that you are still holding onto a lot of resistance and are scared that your person might not come. I hope you don't mind me saying this but I don't think you're completely honest with yourself. I'm not blaming you for behaving this way, it's completely normal.

I have also been really upset after I didn't see any progress in my relationship. But then I accepted the fact that even though I was trying to change, I was still holding onto limiting beliefs. For example, if I really believed that the Universe would help me marry my guy then I wouldn't have texted him two weeks ago. The truth was I was scared that it had been so many months since I had talked to him and I thought I had to make the first move. In addition, I justified texting him by saying that in the past he has never initiated any contact after we fought. Basically, re-living the past plus my limiting beliefs made me message him. Obviously, he didn't reply back because I messaged him out of desperation and fear.

My point is that I understand how you feel and I'm very glad that you were honest but I think that even though you are saying you won't give up, I still sense resistance. The best thing to do is to ignore the past and start again. Tell yourself that it's awesome that you get to create your own life. And, as you begin to do this you will start seeing results. It might take time but the wait is worth it. So be happy and love yourself and the fact you are marrying your person!

It's been awhile since I posted this thread. I hope everyone can say that they're feeling much more positive since I originally posted this thread. I know I'm feeling great!

barbidoll wrote:

I am still on the roller coaster   I go up  for a few hours   and then a memory  or  something triggers  sadness  I am keeping myself completely off social media   ( that was a big trigger)    I am working hard on it though   I catch myself most times     I was with him for 12 years      I am going to a girlfriends for the weekend   Decided to dedicate the entire weekend to  like a spa   just fuss and primp   read fashion magazines  and  read LOA books       and  really really work on me and my visualizations   perhaps this will  move me up in vibration   I live alone  and  go nowhere but work    I work  60 hrs a week   

I know what I have to  feel   think and how I need to behave      I just need to  perhaps   force the situation     but yes  I agree     we are all  going up and down  and I am absolutely positively sure that once  we get ourselves   feeling good and vibrating high    miracles will happen 

I am doing much better keeping my vibration high    yes I dip but nothing like before    slowly but surely I am learning to forgive myself and be happy where I am   I can feel changes coming    You are right  I used to think  I feel better, where is the miracle?  and I would be way down again    Sure I miss him  but  I am finding I like me alone too    What I am learning will keep me from making the same mistakes again    All my relationships have ended badly   and now I completely realize I am not a victim  but I allowed and even expected  these things to happen  to me.