I had a great night with my classmates. We went school to have bbq, the crush that I used to like in the past getting closer to me! Yay, I manifested this again I'm so happy about it, I play along with my those we disrespected me in the past, it's getting better! Second manifestation suceed!

Only him and finance problem left. I was missing him last night and sometimes imagine he's there with me. I even post stories on snapchat just for him to see, and kinda hoping be get jealous when he sees me being so close with my ex-crush, I haven't even reply him yet. I feels that I still have limiting belief. When I think of my birthday next year, I will thought that "well, he might not celebrate with me" but then I rmb I create my own reality and I wanted us to get back before Christmas so there's a big chance that he will celebrate my birthday with me next year and we will also count down tgt and say "I love you" through phone but it doesn't feels real. Its weird that I doesn't feels real and scared of getting hurt by him again but yet I still can see "signs"(I guess), because his car plate num is 3115 and I keep seeing 1135 or 3511 or even 3151. I also saw two rainbows in just a few days. Wouldn't it be great we're together already..? Any advice guys?