Hi everyone!

I have a very complicated situation. I live in a family environment that drives me out of alignment sometimes because they have a very negative mindset and toxic feelings towards anyone who shows success or has a different approach. For example, my parents are heavily religious whereas I wish not to be so stuck and playing imaginary prayers to make them happy. I also have a hard time distancing myself from them as they are very controlling. Because of this it has been quite hard for me to just simply manifest things that would be super easy for others.

I'm trying to get out of my anxious and depressive state but my family has kept me there for quite a long time that its very hard to just relax and let go. How do I cope? I mean my situation is a lot of pressure and way beyond what stress management can handle since I can't change some toxic people. It's just hard to bear it and hope things will work out when I'm making my journey to do better and be better.

I have tried exercising, eating healthy, drinking lots of water, getting adequate sleep, taking action and letting go, and communication with family members (although its quite impossible). I've almost gone crazy and was close to needing psychiatric care. If anyone knows of a better option then just moving out of my environment (without any money/support system/or plan) please suggest down below.