Thank you cherished.

i haven't done any rs or anything. i havent focused on him because i know i wasn't in a happy place when i did rs or anything. it was desperate.  I don't know if it's wrong that i havent done rs, but i just feel like i don't have to. I really am practicing self love, being selfish, and falling in love with the new relationship i have with myself.

now i don't feel the need to do rs because... i just am leaving it to fate now. like i said the universe knows what i want and have trust it'll bring me what i want when it comes. i just took him off the pedestal and really made myself a huge priority.

other guys have shown up but i have no interest. its nice and am happy and am in love with the attention but thats all it is, just attention i dont want them or desire them.

I haven't been on here much because i really have been doing me and am happy. I am beyond happy with life and how i have evolved since coming here. you have been such an immense help to me along with a lot of people here.

my journey turned out not at all how i expected. its crazy that i am now here... and am actually happy with myself. things work in such strange ways and its great.

 

Last edited by CarpeDiem (10/07/2015 2:16 am)

Weird **** happened.

I reactivated my Facebook account and I found an ex from high school a few days ago (not the guy I have been trying to attract). Haven't spoken to this ex in years. low and behold I get a friend request from him this morning.

So far I have now gotten contact from 2 exes. Now we wait and see if the most recent one (the lover who I joined this forum for) will message me. I'm giving my love till the end of the year as an experiment.

I am shocked I manifest ex number 2 super quickly. Let's see if he tries  to talk to me now.

Last edited by CarpeDiem (10/13/2015 11:08 pm)

Ex #2 finally reached out and apologized to me after all these years. He said I didn't deserve what happened and he felt i deserved an apology.

I have had three exes in my life and he's offically the second one to now apologize and admit that he regrets having lost me.

Now lets see if the guy I originally came here for will do the same now.  i have  officially gotten the first two to apologize to me. its insane.

CarpeDiem wrote:

Ex #2 finally reached out and apologized to me after all these years. He said I didn't deserve what happened and he felt i deserved an apology.

I have had three exes in my life and he's offically the second one to now apologize and admit that he regrets having lost me.

Now lets see if the guy I originally came here for will do the same now.  i have  officially gotten the first two to apologize to me. its insane.

Oh wow! I'm glad it happened. Congrats for this CarpeDiem. I also want my ex to contact me and apologize...lol

SO since the last time I spoke on here, I been giving you updates. I had two exes come back and apologize. I have had a lot of guys start taking interest in me.

anyways I am talking to a new guy and I like him. he's sweet, insanely attractive and i actually attracted him, I saw him and knew I wanted him and we actually have gone on dates and talk frequently... but...

After really not paying any mind to the guy I originally came here for, and really just doing me and not focusing on how long it's been, being left etc...

since talking to this new guy... old feelings are returning... I miss my guy... I am not depressed or sad in the slightest.

 think I have finally accepted what happen and have let go. BUT after doing so good, these feelings of missing him are slowly creeping in. I don't take it that I have failed as I am doing me but I don't know why these feelings are coming back. 

I don't know why he hasn't made any attempt to reach out to me. My other exes have it's so strange.

Last edited by CarpeDiem (11/17/2015 4:49 am)