I am going through a very challenging time.  
For the last 4 years I am living in a crazy roller coaster with my SP  I was manifesting him in a loving, fun, adventurous and committed relationship, but now I think I don’t want to pursue it anymore,  I did so much for him and he said that he did for me too but I think he was just paying me back for saving him, and now he doesn’t need my help, he betrayed me with an other woman and denied it, from the beginning of the year , he hurts me emotionally many, many times and I forget him telling myself I will manifest a better version of him , but when I think all is well , boomer ! And other betrayal an other disappointment. And here I am fixing my broken heart, when I said something to him he blamed it on me. It’s my fault, yes I guess I am the one to blame cause of being afraid that something bad will happen then happens, but always start with my feelings and then I start to think, is like a premonition, he survived a very bad motorcycle accident in Miami and I was in New York and coincidentally I was at the Twins Towers memorial over his name and last name at the exact moment when he died for two minutes, I felt it and I said when I saw his name this is a message of dead, I call a friend and she asked at what time I was over his name, when I said 4:45 pm she said he was dead at that time but the doctors were available to resuscitate him, I saw we were mean to be together forever, but now I am looking for a way to don’t suffer anymore, he said now that he always told me that we are not in a relationship even though we live ,sleep and we used to do everything together. My heart and my head are divided, 50% I want to end and never see him again and the other 50% wants to keep swimming against the odds. Help please.Thank you 

I'm so sorry for the difficult time you've been going through! Just know things can get better.

It's so important to prioritize your own well-being. Healing and self-care should be your top priorities right now. Consider taking some time for yourself to reflect on what you truly want and need in a relationship. This introspection can help you gain clarity and perspective on your situation. Try to feel in control of your life instead of having emotions and circumstances get the best of you.

While you've invested a lot emotionally and mentally in manifesting a positive relationship with your SP, it's also crucial to recognize when a relationship becomes emotionally draining and detrimental. If your SP has been causing you emotional pain and betraying your trust, it might be time to evaluate whether this relationship aligns with your long-term happiness and well-being. You can give him some space to prioritize yourself. This isn't letting go of him but rather being adamant on needing new results instead of the same old situations.

Remember that you have the power to set boundaries and make choices that honor your self-respect and dignity. If your SP's actions and behaviors are consistently causing you distress, consider whether you need some time off from this. You can't lose what is yours, so try not to base this decision on fear.

Instead of focusing solely on manifesting a specific outcome with your current SP, consider manifesting qualities and experiences that you desire in a healthy, loving relationship. This could include trust, respect, communication, and mutual support.

Remember that you deserve a relationship that adds positivity to your life, not one that consistently causes pain. Trust your intuition and take the steps that feel right for you. No matter what you decide, I'm here to support you. I know you can attract the best in your life and never settle for less.

Veronica

Viv wrote:

I am going through a very challenging time.  
For the last 4 years I am living in a crazy roller coaster with my SP  I was manifesting him in a loving, fun, adventurous and committed relationship, but now I think I don’t want to pursue it anymore,  I did so much for him and he said that he did for me too but I think he was just paying me back for saving him, and now he doesn’t need my help, he betrayed me with an other woman and denied it, from the beginning of the year , he hurts me emotionally many, many times and I forget him telling myself I will manifest a better version of him , but when I think all is well , boomer ! And other betrayal an other disappointment. And here I am fixing my broken heart, when I said something to him he blamed it on me. It’s my fault, yes I guess I am the one to blame cause of being afraid that something bad will happen then happens, but always start with my feelings and then I start to think, is like a premonition, he survived a very bad motorcycle accident in Miami and I was in New York and coincidentally I was at the Twins Towers memorial over his name and last name at the exact moment when he died for two minutes, I felt it and I said when I saw his name this is a message of dead, I call a friend and she asked at what time I was over his name, when I said 4:45 pm she said he was dead at that time but the doctors were available to resuscitate him, I saw we were mean to be together forever, but now I am looking for a way to don’t suffer anymore, he said now that he always told me that we are not in a relationship even though we live ,sleep and we used to do everything together. My heart and my head are divided, 50% I want to end and never see him again and the other 50% wants to keep swimming against the odds. Help please.Thank you