It's a year that i like this specific person. in this year i used consciously loa, and even between some human mistakes, the situation has changed in an amazing and incredible way. okay we're not together now actually, there's no romance, but we became so clooose friends (he's like my best friend) and in this time i attracted many things (correlated and not to him too)
we went through some problems, discussions and bad periods but we're here
i have to admit that in this period (like 3-4 month from now) i neglected a bit loa... i mean, i was distant from it (even if i always believe in that) and i started to complain again, etc and that brought me to bad situations sometimes...
it's like a month that i got close to loa again (i cried when i realised that i was getting away from it consciously) and now it's like i have to recreate some habits and i have to remove some blockages and bad thinking that in this period was recreating in me... it's a bit hard sometimes, but since i am even writing here, i'm showing my self how much i want to re-have that security and feel the "magic" and positivity inside me
Everything was going well in this... but few days ago my sp talked me about this guy that he knew (he's bisexual) and that they have now a romantic interest between them and they also kissed each other the other day in front of our friends... so yes, there's a third party
i know i should not think about that and not giving power to it, but the fact is that since me and my sp are so friends (and i'm really greatful for that) he talks me about him and sometimes i also have to fake to be happy for him and that hurts so much... of corse sometimes i feel so jealous and i get nervous
sometimes i feel like i can't do anything and that my desire is gone...
what can i do?
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