ahhhh ok I see so he asked for space...then yes give that to him.girl he will be back!!   I totally hear ya when we started talking again I got all focused on him and waiting for his texts...like I was soo happy each time my phone dinged and now I am like dammit I did it again!!   but how can we not get happy when we see a text from our love???
Men are able to think logically woman are emotional lol  I need to start the logical thing

I've been doing this great meditation on You Tube By Debra Berndt-Maldona " open to receive love & abundance  I LOVE it  I have ADD so its very hard for me to stay focused on things. I also am really big onto astrology and tarot and the readings/signs I have  gotten coincide with what's happening so I know he will be back    but yes a work in progress. we just gotta forgive ourselves for setbacks.  I still like listening to songs some days that remind me of him and smile.

Just a general observation :
A continuous 5k run can be painful, especially when you are trying to maintain a constant pace, not pausing at any point of time, not hydrating during the run ( I'm doing this because I'm prepping for a really tough trail which might need me to walk for Long distances with minimal hydration ). Now if I compare this to manifestation, I have an end goal, which is looking at the metrics and seeing distance as 5.0 . There's nothing I can do but run, which is similar to time moving forward. I've noticed if I keep checking out the clock or the distance covered, the process becomes more painful. It's like covering a 100 metres seems to take hours if I keep looking at the screen. In such cases I look away from the screen, think of something fun, think of him fixated on me and telling me how great I look. Or I keep looking outside and telling myself how proud I am of myself that I've been able to pull this off again. I keep having mental conversations with myself, with others. And when I look back on the screen, turns out I've covered a huge distance.
The last 1km gets especially difficult because I've drained my batteries and I've already done 1 hour or lifting and core before the run. But instead of focusing on my legs, I smile because I've done 4/5th of this already and the rest is easy. Kept repeating this is so easy. I even had a weird smile while came automatically ( weird because people around were like why is this female sweating herself out and smiling like a lunatic) because I knew I've done it. I forgot I have a km left. Just let telling myself, dude, you've done this. And within minutes I covered the remaining km and a few extra metres by the time I stopped lol.

I guess that's why all the videos suggest to forget about your intention. I mean obviously I didn't forget the distance, I just stopped looking at the time and distance covered and distracted myself. The waiting became easier. And at one point I had hit the confidence zone where "this is done" just came in naturally.

Meetup is pretty cool. Anything that keeps me busy is cool. I'm not doing anything either. I have my affirmations which I do when I feel good. I visualise when I feel good, I don't have a fixed time to do it. The last time I tried doing it as a routine, it just became really painful. There are days when you're busy and you can't just do it and I forced myself to do it and that actually had caused more anxiety. Now I just go around, do my thing and if suddenly I feel good, like there's a point when I feel that yeah, I think we can have one round of visualisation now, I do it. At the end of the day, it should be fun.

But to be honest I feel like I've come a long way. I actually feel very comfortable with my end outcome. Thinking about the steps in between are what causes anxiety. I tried texting meditations, calling meditations etc, too much detailing. Now I'm like I intend to spend the rest of my life happily with him, with the approval of both our families. How that happens is none of my business. He can call, text, knock on my door in the middle of the night, doesn't matter.

My visualisation capabilities have improved a 100 times. Even with my eyes open it's easy for me to see things very clearly. Now all I need is self love and mental diet. So close to doing this right.
I'm also going to stop going through anymore LOA channels. Neville Goddard's content feels good, I have mugged up Veronica's videos and overdosed on sucess stories. Now it's time to step up my implementation game. Good thing at this stage is, if I watch a video that says "you can't do this" or "there's something better", I think "yeah, maybe in your reality" lol.
So now I have only a number of exercises I do as and when I feel like doing it. This is comfortable and this is enough to get there.
Time to unsubscribe from all the unwanted channels.