So a lot of us are here bc we’re manifesting an SP. I’ve succeeded and subsequently failed. Well not failed. I like To think that I got a reality check on my vibration when things didn’t work out and now I know I gotta focus on me. One part of the focus surrounds surrender and/or letting go. I realized after three months of thinking that I had let go, that I definitely did not. When things fell apart with my SP the second time, I was devastated and thinking that I sucked. This made me realize that I didn’t suck but that I had also neglected myself and focused on him for months on end. What a great wake up call.

In the process of this wake up call, I started thinking about the idea of manifesting what I want or better. That seems to be the teaching point for a lot of LOA teachers and I hated it. I was conflicted bc how can someone say to be sure to know what you want but be prepared for maybe that specific thing to not work out bc the universe wants something better. It seems like a contradiction. It was awesome to see that there are people on this board that are all in on wanting the specific thing that is wanted. I understand that what I want could change in the future, but I don’t like the idea that someone can tell me that what I want may not happen.

This is a long train of thought. But I ended up downloading Tinder again. Bc so many have said to expect what you want or better. So I was liek who I am to shut down the universe  I don’t have a desire to date others bc I feel so sure about my SP, but I let the doubt of others get in the way. So back on track. Downloaded Tinder and then I ran into a problem that I had never had before. I tried a couple times to get the verification code texted to me, but it never came. It was a nice reminder to not do what others have done. What has worked for someone else may not work for me. There’s so many success stories that have happened once people started dating other people and I love it and am glad for their success. But I know that if I start dating again, that means I’ve decided to completely move on and not want my SP and I’m not there at this point.

So now, I’m gonna do what I want bc it feels good and not act based on what works for someone else. We all have our own paths. That’s always true. I will forever love success for all of us, but I gotta stay true to myself.

So ultimately I wrote this to remind people to do what feels right for you. Take success stories as encouragement, but know that none is us know the “how” for what we want. Focus on your end game and making yourself happy in the now. This was long, but I hope it resonates with someone. Having this realization made my feel more at peace. Thank you, Universe, for not sending me the verification for tinder bc I’m excited to focus more on loving myself and being happy regardless of external circumstances. ♥️

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