djspeed21 wrote:

Well it's been quite some time since I've last been on here. Figured it's time for a bit of a story & update. To get to the point. I attracted her back. Last week my SP came back to me. One of my last posts titled "Punch to the gut" told you all about my SP saying she was never attracted to me & how she never will be, & then even blocking me on social media & even my number.

While time no longer exists for me, it took roughly 8 months. But it was really the last month where things really changed for me. The month of July was the month I finally detached from everything. I detached from the current reality, the outcome, the past, again - everything! I spent some time with my few friends, but I spent more time by myself, exploring the province I live in, enjoying the sunset while sitting on the dock & fishing, going to the museum, & so on. While at times I did feel a little lonely, there was just a burning feeling inside of me that would nip it in the bud & replace it with "You know what Speed? Life's good right now." which was usually followed with a big smile on my face. During this time I had a lot of music running through my head too! I'll list those songs below. But I was loving myself, I was loving my own company, I was loving the world around me!!!

I didn't see my SP for the whole month of July. She would text me now & again, I would respond politely & then carry on with life. We work together - and got back to seeing each other at work at the beginning of this month. We would chat, but there were times where I would kindly end the conversation & go back to working or even just continue on with my enjoyment of life. And then last week it happened.

My SP & I were talking. And she had a confession. She was thinking about me a lot & wanted to go out like old times as she put it. However I respectfully declined. Wait... What? Yeah you read that correctly. I attracted her back & told her "no, I'm good". Because it's really true. I'm really happy with the way my life is right now. During the time apart from her & when it was just me, I realized that it seems like it was my ego who wanted her back more. That time apart & by myself gave me the opportunity to dissolve my ego as well. I am running at a high vibration right now, & my intuition has told me that my SP isn't on the same level as me. Maybe down the road she will rise up & join me? Maybe not? All I know is I'm gonna keep on moving because the world isn't gonna stop for me. There are so many other things I want to do before 2018 is up, by myself or not it doesn't matter because I'll still be with good company.

But yeah! So it's definitely possible to attract a person back ladies & gentleman, but the big thing is - are they worth it? Is it just the ego running the show? Yes I believe that everything around us is us pushed out, but what if there's something more? Somebody better? Leave yourself open to the endless possibilities of this great universe!

I'm always looking for people to chat with so feel free to PM me & I'll give you my WhatsApp, but until then here are the names of some tunes to check out! When I was exploring, I had a playlist of songs that I would be listening to. These are almost all the songs from that playlist.

Deadmau5 feat. Rob Swire - Monophobia
Dillon Francis - Never Let You Go
Edward Maya feat. Mayavin Sabyh - Fall In Love
EDX feat. Hadley - Everything
One Republic - Future Looks Good
Giuseppe Ottaviani feat. Betsie Larkin - Toys
Alex Pich - Heavens
Martin Garrix feat. Bonn - High On Life
Michael Jackson - Human Nature (Louis La Roche Remix)
Illenium feat Ember Island - Let You Go
Marshmello feat Khalid - Silence
Basement Jaxx - Never Say Never (Louis La Roche Remix)
Martin Garrix feat. Khalid - Ocean
Dvas - Questions (Adam K Remix)
Robin Schulz feat James Blunt - OK
Martin Garrix feat Dua Lipa - Scared To Be Lonely
Mat Zo feat I See MONSTAS - Sinful (Louis La Roche Remix)
Adam K - You're Not Alone

ENJOY!

- SPE3D

 
Hi!  Would you send me a PM?  I would love to speak with you.

Been a while since I've been here. So let's give an update shall we? - I mean my last post was what, 2018? lol

So the SP that I was trying to manifest & no longer want has messaged me on & off these past few years trying to get back with me, however I've always respectfully declined. I've realized that I'm still better off without her & wish her the best. 

I manifested a new-ish car last year that's been a blast & a new learning experience (never had a manual transmission car before, but a year later - I'm a pro!)

I've spent 18 years working with animals, & while it's been a blast, I felt like it was time to move into a new direction. This year the opportunity was manifested to go back to school to learn business, digital marketing, & web design which I jumped at it, because at the end of the day this is all part of the series of events that will lead me to my end result (though I really can't stand Zoom lol). 

I've long since struggled with money, but the past year has seen me become that "Money Magnet" that we all dream to be, with money being found in random places (I legit found $10 in a snow bank one Canadian winter day while snow blowing the driveway), & my bank account that used to hover around $500, now sits at a cool $10,000 with another $20,000 in assets. Money loves me & finds me ALWAYS.

There are still some things that are a work in progress. I was hoping to move out of my family's home into my own, but hey thanks COVID for holding that one up. That's ok, just means that the place that does present itself to me is gonna be one helluva place!

And really, I'm still human guys & gals. I still have days where I feel like crap, & my mind dips into negativity. Feeling lonely, isolated from the world, broken, worthless, wondering why what I want hasn't arrived yet or will it ever show up. But thank goodness for family, friends, music, & hobbies to quell those feelings & get me back on track.

The lessons I've learned throughout these few years are:

1 - It's so important to put yourself on that pedestal (love yourself) - seriously, walk with that swagger like you're the "King/Queen Sh*t" BECAUSE YOU ARE.

2 - Be thankful for all the positive things around you - even if they're tiny (gratitude goes a long way).

3 - Calm your mind through meditation or some form of creative outlet/hobby (I love to sing & work on art projects), and don't hold on too tightly to what you want - let it go & have faith.

It may be hard to do so but trust me, it'll come, they'll come back, it always works out for YOU! You're not gonna develop these beliefs overnight, it's gonna take some time, but trust me, as somebody who would always think the worst - or just overthink in general, these things DO help.

Hope these words can help any of you out there who may be feeling down right now. As cliche as it may sound, where there is dark, there is also light. If you have any questions, just wanna talk, or just need a pick-me-up, by all means feel free to hit me up via email, whatsapp or instagram as I'll be honest, I probably won't log into this site for like another year or two. I've always got time to chat, & I won't charge ya LOL.


Email - dj.randy85@hotmail.com
Whatsapp - 1-647-519-0745
Instagram - @velosteraptor21

I'm pulling for ya, we're all in this together!

Your friend & #1 fan
       Randy

Last edited by djspeed21 (8/24/2020 11:47 am)