It’s been 4 months since I last had contact with my specific person. I realised I may have said something offensive last time we spoke. But he knows me and these things never bothered him before. I thought to myself that he was in a bad place and I just had to give him some space. He’ll contact me again. LOA will work for me as I have manifested money with this before.

For the past 4 months I have been in a good mood for the most part. I kept myself busy and always thought happy thoughts, I sure did have some doubts but I quickly realised and was able to move away from it. I would say for the last month I have been nothing but positive as I felt that my desire was closer than ever. But today I am questioning my self, have really let go or am I just delusional?

My mother knew how much I liked this guy but she told me that he’s not coming back and I shouldn’t make future plans that involve him. I talked to my mum about taking a long holiday next year and told my mum that I want to go with this guy. I was really angry and told my mum that she’s ruining my vibration and she should let me think whatever I want to think and believe whatever I want to believe. My mum then reminded me that today’s my birthday and the guy failed to wish me a happy birthday. According to her this proves that he won’t come back.

Therefore I want to re-evaluate my loa practice. Have I not fully let go? Is it wrong to make plans that involve him? I thought that was part of acting as if. But to be honest it didn’t feel like I was acting  as if I just felt like I would have him back by next year. I don’t know maybe I am delusional. The birthday thing didn’t even bother me at all until my mum mentioned it. Now I’m depressed. My friends told me that it’s okay for me to contact him first and ask him how he’s doing since I was the last one that made a mistake and I was the one that caused the most of our  fights during our time together. But I wanted to fully believe in the loa. But now I don’t know anymore. Can someone please help me to understand my situation. How do you know if you have fully let go?