I think you should not follow him. There is still
Some part in you that thinks you are second best etc. I think it's good to not follow him. Focus on you and building yourself up. Sometimes we still have subconscious beliefs that block us.  Really ask yourself if you were feeling all great would you have requested out of fear? Were you trying to snoop to see if he was single? Thise things show that you are still acting out of lack and fear. I would let it go take a step back and focus on you and instill promote self love as that helps dissolve negative beliefs and can help work on the blocks . Then after that or when you feel good do some visualizing etc .

AnythingIsPossible wrote:

You're right. In that moment, I had followed him to find out anything I could on their relationship.
I've come a LONG way and am in a good, healthy place now but I'm still so scared/sad of it not happening and I feel like if I pull away completely it won't. But it's worth a shot, since this way isn't producing the results I really want. 
Thanks!!

Of course but see you are coming from a place of lack which is why this happened this way. You weren't following him or anything for fun and stuff you came from a place of is this working? I want to see something? Is he with her etc. focus on you keep it up and just enjoy life . We deserve to be happy now and the best things come from the positive energy we radiate out. We deserve to treat ourselves like our own best friend