Sanshi - I think you have totally hit the nail right on the head. I do believe in LoA and I have seen it work so I know it is true, but at the same time there is that part of me that maybe doesn’t always believe it 100%. This makes it difficult for me to let go of “control” when it relates to something near and dear to my heart, and just trust that everything will work out.

Thank you so much for your response. I think it eloquently sums up where I am right now.

How do you overcome the feeling that you won’t get your desires by letting go? In some part of my mind I feel like if I let go and don’t really focus on my desire then that’s the same as just doing nothing and never learning about LoA. I know that is definitely the wrong way to think about it, I guess I have just been so conditioned to expect to have to work hard for what I want!

cynthia, 

hi sorry for jumping it just like this., but I am struggling to push away negative feelings, anxiety or fear. 

what works for your the best in order to let go of the negative emotions like doubt or even jealousy. 

I am doing my best to forget of the time. Though I am having a hard time not stalking again. 

I believe, I truly believe. I think I am still getting rid off my beliefs of not being worthy enough or not being this or that for him, so thats when I obviosuly doubt. 

I see a like to a couple or to an ex lover and I feel angry. but I can recognise it goes back to, I feel he is not approving of me, or I wish he thought of me when he liked that couple. I know it is me who has to aprove of myself. I think Istill  have resenment too. 

again, I am aware I have to work on loads of things. 
 
some others I trust and everythign I see or know of him I read into ir positively. For instance, he liked a picture of a family with his baby, or a couple and I think it is obviously because the thought of a family (of our family) is growing in him as we had talked about that before he blocked me from all social media ... lol... it is obviously because he misses me. and so on.

I really want to stay in the wish fulfilment, i am making plans for myself  to go to another continent and I still know it will happen, but the resenment and fear comes once in a while to visit. I am busy, already living abroad. so with quiet a few things to do but this happens, and sometimes I freeze and I cant function after I see something or now after I see he has not answered but he does post in social media as he recently unblocked me from one form of social media. though it was only for financial purposes, well on the surface it appears that way, but I really did not ask him to do so, and he did. we were communicating through email. and well we could have talked through facebook messenger, but i think he just did not think of that. lol like me thinking of these irrelevant details. 

at the end is progress, and I must say soemthing he still does do for me, is to pay my student loan every month and he says he wants to provide for me (some help  with wjat he can)
now, I did see a post where he says he sometimes sees himself as a fallen hero, as righteous even when he has been wronged, as chivalrous when it is hard to find, and others., but he was saying it was his ego. 
so at first I was like no one does that for you and wants to provide for you  just because they are chivalrous when they are a bit tight in money right? ... 

anyway... ,those are just rambling details of what I am going through, but what I really want advice on letting go of the negative. 

thank you!!