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Something really strange happened to me and the more I think about it, these "symptoms" resemble being RSed..
So ; I am totally in love with my specific person and am still.
BUT.
this happened to me the last lets say 2 weeks and I really dont know if this is just ME or whether he uses RS or some kind of "sexy visualisation" on me.
A few weeks ago, that guy added me on instagram. Well, we were together at schoolΒ and finished our a-level togehter but we never had direct contact and since school was over we never saw each other again. (since almost 2 years). I added him back and I noticed he would look at my story regularly and he eventually added me on snapchat. nothing fancy.
He definitely is not "ugly" , but I have never been interested in him and never considered him being interesting or handsome. And since 2 weeks, I started to think about him. I started to look at his pictures and thought "wow. he is so sweet and handsome! omg. I love his job (he is a CTA and I love men wearing white *-* ) , he is really so sweet!". It was so weird, because I never thought about him before, not at all. And suddenly I feel drawn to him!
It intesified the last 2 days to the point where I now have "butterflies in my stomach" , this typical giddy in-love having a crush feeling. He is on my mind the whole time. And the thing is I HAVENT SEEN HIM IN 2 YEARS, never had contact to him, I just know him of school.
ITS CRAZY!!!
I dont know if this is due to the fact that I like male nurses ( Im sorry, it sounds awkward, but I think male nurses and doctors are kind of hot, please dont judge me on that :D :D :D ) or if he unintentionally or maybe intentionally thinks of me ?!
The thing is, I found out that he is working as a male nurse AFTER I had the thoughts about him. So my attraction for him started before I found out.
I hope someone can help me out, because I start to get crazy.
I am in love with my Specific person even though we are not back together, and suddenly this happens !?
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It sounds like that could be the case. Lanie Stevens said somewhere, I think it is in one of her books, that she had somebody use one of her techniques on her, somebody she would otherwise never feel remotely attracted to. She didn't say what, if anything, she did about it, but you might contact her and ask.
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I mean, actually it feels nice.
Hes not some "ugly" (in inverted commas, because noone is ugly, but I hope you know what I mean) , mean, irritating, nasty or disgusting person. He is a nice guy, and quite good looking,too. ( never paid attention to him before lol )
IF he does the technique or something like that on me, its not a problem. Because that would imply that he likes me as well.
It doesnt feel as if my "free will" is taken away, I swear you it just feels as if this comes from me. But knowing about lanies technque and remote seduction and the fact that these feelings came suddenly and out of the blue, I figure it could be actually coming from him.
Actually, it feels nice since all of the fixation, alll of the clinging onto my specific person loosens a little bit, in that regard that guy did me a favour.
I couldnt come up with a reason WHY this guy who didnt see me 2 years and never had contact to me would be attracted to me all of a sudden to the point where he thinks of me lovingly!?
Thats why its so hard to grasp what is going on, never had that before.