I think you should work on living in the state of your desire when you feel up to it. Because as you know, doubts & fears won’t bring you what you want.

Selfloveiskey wrote:

Sometimes I feel taking time away helps . Currently it's what I'm doing in a sense. I'm at a state where I really don't want to do techniques much or anything. I feel i have done all i can and the universe knows what I want. I feel strongly in that area. I wouldn't say it's negative thing it feels more positive. At the same time I still have trouble believing without seeing? I'm not sure what this feeling is and I guess I came here to talk it out.  I may be seeing him Friday at a group event and it's fine. I'm actually more determined to ignore him. Not in a malice way but it's in a I shouldn't have to decode or anything the universe will bring stuff to me way. This almost is how it feels to let go I guess but I still have doubts. Or fears? Or it could be I'm tired? Anyone experience this? I'm not like worried. I have noticed with other things I have manifested pretty quick things that were in my mind. Also I was 90% sure I was gonna owe taxes but I didn't! So yay! So some good stuff. Hope you guys are having a great day!

 
You sound discouraged to me. When I feel discouraged, I take a break for a bit. One thing I've noticed all over this forum and in life in general is the way today's fast paced lifestyle cheats people of learning patience. As one of the older members here, I can remember the days when the only ways we had of communicating with somebody who wasn't in person with us was to write a letter by snail mail and have to wait what could be weeks or even months for a reply, make a phone call, or in certain cases of urgency send a telegramme. It was a slower pace of life in general. Things didn't happen instantly, we knew things were going to take a bit of time, and we accepted that we had to be patient, like it or not. Nowadays if something doesn't happen almost instantly people get so easily discouraged and think it's never going to happen. I come from a family of musicians, and to get good at playing an instrument or singing, like acquiring any skill, takes time, practice, and persistence, and the same is true of learning conscious creation.  People need to learn patience and persistence and that things take as long as they take, otherwise they seem to become desperate and hopeless if things don't go their way immediately. I've been wanting to say this for a long time. I'm not specifically directing this at you.
I don't know why you would want to ignore someone you want to have a romantic relationship with at that group you mentioned. You don't have to fawn all over him, but ignoring him smacks of anger or resentment towards him and/or childishness, and how would you feel if the situation were reversed? Would that endear that person to you or make you want to push them away?

As stated ignoring is a harsh word it's not malice intent I'm just not gonna make my way over to purposely talk to him but if he talks to me great. Sure I'll say hi but I feel like I shouldn't force anything . If I'm feeling relaxed and fine it will pull him over he would be attracted to my energy. But I'm not gonna make this my soul purpose . I don't think it's really giving up besides letting go. I know it's possible I know it can happen but I feel like if I keep doing things I'm forcing it when I should just let go and allow. I think it's I've done the work to ask. I don't feel I should do anymore like visualizing or living in the desire . If it comes up naturally then fine but if I purposely do it it may be more resistant .  And no this isn't like impatience of wanting it instantly trust me I have been doing this for awhile and hats fine yea I would like it but I just want to let it come to me . I feel that is the best so no I'm not impatient or gonna be angry at him. Im just not gonna go out of my way to talk to him. I've reached out on my own and done what I can the universe knows. So I guess it's more allowing? The feeling I have is not anything terrible. Sure doubts come in but there isn't anyone that goes through things without some doubts . But I actually like feeling free and allowing them constantly doing exercises

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