Hey everybody! In a been following Veronica on YouTube and I've known about her for quite awhile now. I bought the 25 day challenge book with all the exercises and I haven't been able to because I'm afraid. I want to believe that the guy I want back in my life will come back but I have my doubts. When he and I were together (which in all honesty we never were) we were much more of a fling but that's because I ruined our relationship from the start. I was very insecure and I argued with him way too much & he couldn't handle that so we decided to just be friends with benefits but I always wanted to be more. I do truly believe he cared about me but he didn't like how I treated him. I can't blame him I was awful. I recognize that now. But anyways I told me some very horrible lies. I'm too embarrassed to say them. But I made him feel awful about him just wanting me for sex and I was so horrible to him so eventually I let him go. I unfollowed him from all social media and I took time to myself to reflect and to move on. I've tried dating but I can't help but compare the guys to him. It's been months almost a year since I broke it off and told him to never contact me again. But I really want him to. I want to tell him the truth. My conscious isn't at peace but idk if that's what's best. I want something serious with him and I don't want to be in a relationship that has lies. I really want to contact him but then veronica advice says not to. Well on the book and videos that's what she says. Will he really come back? My Instagram is public and he would watch my instastories so I know he thinks about me even just a little. I did follow him on instagram and he followed me back. But that's all I did. I was the one who made the first move when we first started talking. So what should I do. I'm confused.